This week has been mad. Swamped i tell you. swamped with things eating my time and attention. I was just apologizing to Kenneth last nite because I hadn't done a single bit of my NISS [the new bible study] homework. Monday to wed i had exercise so i didn't get home till like 1am thurs... needless to say the rest of the day was tiring coz i had to work. then the rest of the weekday nights were spent doing breakout final preps and writing my article for the weekly. the only time i had was sat night. haha... it's like cramming 6 days of NISS into a few hours on sat night. haha
ended up sleepin at 2 if i'm not wrong... but managed to finish my niss. amazingly enuf i was able to clear what i needed to. hhaaha... but this week has really taken it's toil on me.
haha it's funny, i stopped blogging to chat and now i'm continuing the entry... an hour later... anyways, today was quite ok... church and all. meaningful songs and i thot it was done quite well. pastor gave a good message too and had some efficient and good meetings after that. :)
still glad the breakout comm is going strong and doing well. once again, writers blog i mean.. block... so yeh, take care peeps.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Tribute to God and to Alvin
I wrote an article for my church weekly this week. it was published and thanks be to God, many were encouraged. :) Amen. :) Glory goes to God coz He gave me the words to write. anyways, here it is.
I have a friend, Alvin. I knew him from the Army and when I knew him, I got to know he was a backslider. Seeing how the rest of my army friends would ostracise him because he was a bit weird made me make a commitment to God to reach out to him. It was during one of those normal boring guard duties that I took the chance to dig deep and ask him more about his life. It was interesting how he was open as he shared about how he became a Christian and why, due to some conflict with people, stopped attending church. I guess it was either me taking interest in his life or just the chance to share with someone but we hit it off pretty well and I told God that I'll work on bringing him back to Christ.
Amazingly, we were posted to the same workshop and although most pitied me for ending up with him for the rest of my army life, I saw it as a confirmation from God that He wanted me to specifically talk to Alvin about Christ. Over the months, I reached out to him constantly and poked him time and time again about church going. He promised to try his old church again and he did. Occasionally, he'd stop going because of other commitments but I was glad that there was some progress. Over time, we tried starting a prayer meeting in the workshop but apart from Alvin, most weren't too interested in giving up their break time to meet and pray together. Interestingly enough, Alvin and I had some mutual friends whom he had known from Poly and Poly Christian Fellowship. As I spoke to them, I found out that the Christian Fellowship didn't know how to talk to him or reach out to him and actually gave up on trying. It was amazing how God put him into my life so that His work would not be stopped or done in vain. I viewed that as yet another compelling evidence to never give up with Alvin. Outside of work time, Alvin and I would also go and chill out or have a meal together since his girlfriend's place was close to mine. I really enjoyed the fact that God was allowing me this chance to watch a brother grow in his faith and inch closer and closer to the Lord.
However, November 2007, due to a review in his medical status, he was posted out of the workshop to become a storeman in our HQ, Jurong Camp. I personally was taken aback at the sudden re-posting and was disheartened that I had lost a good friend. I didn't let distance stop me from maintaining a good friendship with Alvin and whenever I went to Jurong Camp, looking him up for lunch was a habit. I enjoyed his company and the laughs he brought but he also represented a sense of achievement and accomplishment as I saw how he came back to Christ.
Last Saturday, I got a call from his girlfriend at about 1plus. It was simple, straightforward and unforgettable. “Joel, I don't know who else to call. Alvin met with an bike accident and has passed away.” I stood there in my room stunned as my brain slowly took it all in. My knees buckled and I crumpled to the floor. He has just recently obtained his bike license and I used to joke about how dangerous he would be on the road. Suddenly, it wasn't that funny a joke anymore. In that matter of seconds my whole weekend and life changed. My friend had just died and I couldn't do anything about it. My mind slowly soaked up the details and information as internally, I didn't want to believe it.
I dropped all my commitments, save church, to be there for his girlfriend and family. It took a lot from me and even now, a week after his passing, I still find it hard when I think of my dear friend. However, what I want to say is that if I had ignored God's soft prompting to reach out to him, if I had done the logical thing and mocked him along with my fellow friends, I would be living in regret and guilt now. Brethren, what I can say is that God works in impossibly mysterious ways and although I miss him from time to time, I am so glad I will see Alvin once more in heaven. I hope that all of us take this as an opportunity to re-look those we know who need the Lord. Don't ignore a prompting if God has given it to you because we never know how long we have on this earth with these friends. A burden given by the Lord has a reason and we might not understand it, all He asks is that we obey the still small voice. I started this article with 'I have a friend' and not 'I had a friend' because I know that one day, I'll see him in heaven again and he will always be my friend. I pray you will see your friends there too.
In memory of my dear friend and brother in Christ, Alvin Ho.
I have a friend, Alvin. I knew him from the Army and when I knew him, I got to know he was a backslider. Seeing how the rest of my army friends would ostracise him because he was a bit weird made me make a commitment to God to reach out to him. It was during one of those normal boring guard duties that I took the chance to dig deep and ask him more about his life. It was interesting how he was open as he shared about how he became a Christian and why, due to some conflict with people, stopped attending church. I guess it was either me taking interest in his life or just the chance to share with someone but we hit it off pretty well and I told God that I'll work on bringing him back to Christ.
Amazingly, we were posted to the same workshop and although most pitied me for ending up with him for the rest of my army life, I saw it as a confirmation from God that He wanted me to specifically talk to Alvin about Christ. Over the months, I reached out to him constantly and poked him time and time again about church going. He promised to try his old church again and he did. Occasionally, he'd stop going because of other commitments but I was glad that there was some progress. Over time, we tried starting a prayer meeting in the workshop but apart from Alvin, most weren't too interested in giving up their break time to meet and pray together. Interestingly enough, Alvin and I had some mutual friends whom he had known from Poly and Poly Christian Fellowship. As I spoke to them, I found out that the Christian Fellowship didn't know how to talk to him or reach out to him and actually gave up on trying. It was amazing how God put him into my life so that His work would not be stopped or done in vain. I viewed that as yet another compelling evidence to never give up with Alvin. Outside of work time, Alvin and I would also go and chill out or have a meal together since his girlfriend's place was close to mine. I really enjoyed the fact that God was allowing me this chance to watch a brother grow in his faith and inch closer and closer to the Lord.
However, November 2007, due to a review in his medical status, he was posted out of the workshop to become a storeman in our HQ, Jurong Camp. I personally was taken aback at the sudden re-posting and was disheartened that I had lost a good friend. I didn't let distance stop me from maintaining a good friendship with Alvin and whenever I went to Jurong Camp, looking him up for lunch was a habit. I enjoyed his company and the laughs he brought but he also represented a sense of achievement and accomplishment as I saw how he came back to Christ.
Last Saturday, I got a call from his girlfriend at about 1plus. It was simple, straightforward and unforgettable. “Joel, I don't know who else to call. Alvin met with an bike accident and has passed away.” I stood there in my room stunned as my brain slowly took it all in. My knees buckled and I crumpled to the floor. He has just recently obtained his bike license and I used to joke about how dangerous he would be on the road. Suddenly, it wasn't that funny a joke anymore. In that matter of seconds my whole weekend and life changed. My friend had just died and I couldn't do anything about it. My mind slowly soaked up the details and information as internally, I didn't want to believe it.
I dropped all my commitments, save church, to be there for his girlfriend and family. It took a lot from me and even now, a week after his passing, I still find it hard when I think of my dear friend. However, what I want to say is that if I had ignored God's soft prompting to reach out to him, if I had done the logical thing and mocked him along with my fellow friends, I would be living in regret and guilt now. Brethren, what I can say is that God works in impossibly mysterious ways and although I miss him from time to time, I am so glad I will see Alvin once more in heaven. I hope that all of us take this as an opportunity to re-look those we know who need the Lord. Don't ignore a prompting if God has given it to you because we never know how long we have on this earth with these friends. A burden given by the Lord has a reason and we might not understand it, all He asks is that we obey the still small voice. I started this article with 'I have a friend' and not 'I had a friend' because I know that one day, I'll see him in heaven again and he will always be my friend. I pray you will see your friends there too.
In memory of my dear friend and brother in Christ, Alvin Ho.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Dedicated to Alvin Ho Kah Yun
This post is dedicated to my dear dear friend Alvin Ho. You were a good guy, a great fren and a closer brother. Words fail me to understand why you've been snatched away to be with God now. I can't say I understand but I will accept that it is in His almighty plan. I'm just thankful to God for the chance to know you, to work with you and to pray with you.
I will miss you so much. I already do. Thank you for being my friend, my confidante at times and my brother in Christ. You don't know what you meant to me.
They say life goes on, but life without you inside is going to be way different. I pray you are in a better place, with God. I'll miss you buddy.
"Alvin Ho, formerly from our depo posted to Hq died in a traffic accident in Malaysia. News from Bn Hq"
"Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows."
"...When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me..."
"Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows."
"...When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me..."
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
Pay Day
Today's pay day. guess who finally has 4 digits in his bank account. guess guess.
i'll give you a hint: me.
MWHAHA. yayz. i'm so happy. first time in my whole NS life i have 4 digits. and this is like a really rare thing coz even before army, it wasn't easy getting and keeping 4 digits... so here's to the hope once again of staying sustainable. :)
even though today was a really really busy and tiring day... i'm so happy.
everyone should make the 10th of every month something to look forward to.
i'll give you a hint: me.
MWHAHA. yayz. i'm so happy. first time in my whole NS life i have 4 digits. and this is like a really rare thing coz even before army, it wasn't easy getting and keeping 4 digits... so here's to the hope once again of staying sustainable. :)
even though today was a really really busy and tiring day... i'm so happy.
everyone should make the 10th of every month something to look forward to.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Coz you had a bad day...
Today wasn't a great day, it was quite bad... but i guess i've had much worse... jus wanna blog bout it coz it gives me an avenue to rant. :)
Work today was a bummer. It was a super long day [hours dragged on forever] and i got a bit pissed off at work today coz my juniors were just blatantly sleeping on the vehicle... it's quite irritating when i kept having to wake them up coz i dun want them to get in trouble. decent courtesy would be to wake yourself up or try not to sleep... yeh, so in the end found myself having to walk away from the vehicle many times just to keep myself from scolding them or saying sumthing i might regret. i like this bunch of juniors, dun wanna spoil that.
Then after work FINALLY ended, took a bus down to tampines to connect to bugis... but i missed my tampines stop coz i dozed a bit... ended up taking the long route to bedok mrt. which was super crowded... got to bugis, met up with M.Seah and J.Foong and had a nice time chatting over dinner. I'm glad we still meet up and we're still quite close to each other. :) we had a fun time swaan-ning Seah bout his officer appointment... we two are sergeants see. ahha. Yup.
So Seah told me a new way to go home, decided to go with him. supposed to be faster. ended up waiting for our bus for quite a while and then after he got off, i got off to get my connecting bus 10. waited for like 15 minutes and i was messaging to avoid dying from boredom... then i looked up and ZOOM bus 10 went by.not just that, it went by and splashed water on my jeans and feet lor. i was like. WTH... sheeeet. ended up at that cold rainy dark bus stop for half an hour. lost my transfer concession coz waited too long and had to run home in the rain after that.
Oh, and it's 5 minutes to my extended bedtime liao. supposed to sleep at 11. sigh
Work today was a bummer. It was a super long day [hours dragged on forever] and i got a bit pissed off at work today coz my juniors were just blatantly sleeping on the vehicle... it's quite irritating when i kept having to wake them up coz i dun want them to get in trouble. decent courtesy would be to wake yourself up or try not to sleep... yeh, so in the end found myself having to walk away from the vehicle many times just to keep myself from scolding them or saying sumthing i might regret. i like this bunch of juniors, dun wanna spoil that.
Then after work FINALLY ended, took a bus down to tampines to connect to bugis... but i missed my tampines stop coz i dozed a bit... ended up taking the long route to bedok mrt. which was super crowded... got to bugis, met up with M.Seah and J.Foong and had a nice time chatting over dinner. I'm glad we still meet up and we're still quite close to each other. :) we had a fun time swaan-ning Seah bout his officer appointment... we two are sergeants see. ahha. Yup.
So Seah told me a new way to go home, decided to go with him. supposed to be faster. ended up waiting for our bus for quite a while and then after he got off, i got off to get my connecting bus 10. waited for like 15 minutes and i was messaging to avoid dying from boredom... then i looked up and ZOOM bus 10 went by.not just that, it went by and splashed water on my jeans and feet lor. i was like. WTH... sheeeet. ended up at that cold rainy dark bus stop for half an hour. lost my transfer concession coz waited too long and had to run home in the rain after that.
Oh, and it's 5 minutes to my extended bedtime liao. supposed to sleep at 11. sigh
" Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around"
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around"
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
BreakOut SubComm Poster Designing 070108
Can I say with ease that I love the BreakOut SubComm to bits? So hardworking, so committed. I've got SUCH an easy life with them around. lolz.
Met up with the BreakOut SubComm girls last nite [Sera.Tong] 'siam'-ed the camera but she was there] to design the poster for the upcoming BreakOut: PlayStation. It was a fun time of crazy-ness and yet SUMHOW, discussion on what needs to be added on and what needs to be taken out. I guess it's rare that I design a poster with the help of others, most of the time i'd jus do it myself and get it over with. However, this time was refreshing to have their input and their suggestions added on. :) Surely worth the petrol and parking. haha.
Things are really looking good for now, the BreakOut team looks real set to go and minister to the people. Now we're just praying hard that the people show and they have enuf fun to want to bring their friends. I can't emphasize this more. Like how I mentioned in BAYFGM, there's NO POINT planning BreakOuts if you don't come or don't get your friends down as well. We don't plan this coz we love planning activities [though we do], we plan it for the YF to participate and enjoy... we plan it for you.
Look at the BreakOut Sub Comm, look at the Exco. Don't let our efforts go to waste. Come, come for YFs and stuff... you won't regret it. I have never.
BreakOut: PlayStation
26th Jan 2008, 2:41pm, Chapel.
26th Jan 2008, 2:41pm, Chapel.
Sunday, January 06, 2008
First Post of 2008
Yeh so I'm kinda late for the first post of the new year.. considering how it's already the 6th day of the new year... well, i've been a bit busy with YF and church and work and stuff... yeh, apologies... new year's was good... we chilled at the Puas house which was super uber fun. We played this chinese game...
yes, you MAY stop re-reading that sentence... I DID play a chinese game.. and i WAS quite ok.. i even got to the top... for like, a few seconds but hey! i was there. ahha
It's called 'MA TONG'... yeh, toilet bowl [which i thot meant pail at first but hey, who needs to know that]... and it's a rhythm, chinese game... aiyah, go learn it from someone else and when we've got another big-group-get-together-thing, we'll play it... coz yeh, it's ACTUALLY fun. well, Lynn might not think so. :P ahha
Other than that, we didn't get to use the frog 'awkward silence' thing at Watchnight. like super bummer... haha but watchnight was good... people jus kept coming to the front to give testimony. it was quite a thril... and some of them were really meaningful and i'm glad they came to share.
Ju gave testimony about her grandma which was real good... so happy she shared and FIRST summore. :)
Yups, so here i am, slacking on a sunday evening.. watching the Italian Job on TV. so cool. heh it's like THE mini cooper show. S_xy to the max. :) but aye, i'll settle and be content with my kick as_ honda fit. haha...
I'm glad things are going good nowadays. i mean, i'm at peace with everyone again... and i hope everyone's at peace with me. Have a good 2008 people. heh
yes, you MAY stop re-reading that sentence... I DID play a chinese game.. and i WAS quite ok.. i even got to the top... for like, a few seconds but hey! i was there. ahha
It's called 'MA TONG'... yeh, toilet bowl [which i thot meant pail at first but hey, who needs to know that]... and it's a rhythm, chinese game... aiyah, go learn it from someone else and when we've got another big-group-get-together-thing, we'll play it... coz yeh, it's ACTUALLY fun. well, Lynn might not think so. :P ahha
Other than that, we didn't get to use the frog 'awkward silence' thing at Watchnight. like super bummer... haha but watchnight was good... people jus kept coming to the front to give testimony. it was quite a thril... and some of them were really meaningful and i'm glad they came to share.
Ju gave testimony about her grandma which was real good... so happy she shared and FIRST summore. :)
Yups, so here i am, slacking on a sunday evening.. watching the Italian Job on TV. so cool. heh it's like THE mini cooper show. S_xy to the max. :) but aye, i'll settle and be content with my kick as_ honda fit. haha...
I'm glad things are going good nowadays. i mean, i'm at peace with everyone again... and i hope everyone's at peace with me. Have a good 2008 people. heh
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Uncontrollable...
Ever bawled your eyes out during a movie? To have this unending sob keep rising to your nose, throat and eyes? To have your body rocking and to have your eyes well up with such force no dam in this world could hold?
And to finally let it out and let the tears trickle down your cheek as you breathe in that wave of comfort. To try to mask it with a laugh yet trying to keep watching though your vision's all watery?
Well, it happens from time to time. Gosh, it was a good feeling though.
The LakeHouse. if you haven't, go watch it.
*sniff*
And to finally let it out and let the tears trickle down your cheek as you breathe in that wave of comfort. To try to mask it with a laugh yet trying to keep watching though your vision's all watery?
Well, it happens from time to time. Gosh, it was a good feeling though.
The LakeHouse. if you haven't, go watch it.
*sniff*
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Blessed Christmas
So it's finally here, done and over. Christmas is here and the hype of the season has reached its pinnacle. The epitome of joy, love and sacrifice has been once again celebrated, remembered and cherished. The Lord's birth is once again commemorated with a big bang... i must say this Christmas was different... it was less than what i expected and much less... WOWed. :)
The gifts were exchanged, cards, handshakes of love and hugs of concern were given out freely. It was a wonderful time when the whole church was just lost in the festive mood of wishing every a blessed Christmas. For that split second, everyone was just happy. It was nice.
Then we had a stayover at D.Yeo's place. I'm still there actually. it's 6.32am and i'm waiting for the sun to rise so i'll have enough light and energy to go home. haha... kinda tired but i'm so used to not sleeping properly so it's ok. Yup, glad that i got some stuff for some people and some cards for some people and wished some people. u know, it's the whole yayz, i'm glad they're happy. haha...
yup. tired now. byez. blessed christmas one and all.
The gifts were exchanged, cards, handshakes of love and hugs of concern were given out freely. It was a wonderful time when the whole church was just lost in the festive mood of wishing every a blessed Christmas. For that split second, everyone was just happy. It was nice.
Then we had a stayover at D.Yeo's place. I'm still there actually. it's 6.32am and i'm waiting for the sun to rise so i'll have enough light and energy to go home. haha... kinda tired but i'm so used to not sleeping properly so it's ok. Yup, glad that i got some stuff for some people and some cards for some people and wished some people. u know, it's the whole yayz, i'm glad they're happy. haha...
yup. tired now. byez. blessed christmas one and all.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Christmas
Christmas is finally coming... It's in 2 days. The festive CRAZY-NESS has started. Today's the first 'performance' and people are going mad i tell you... running here and there... but it's fun to be busy in the Lord and seeing the cheer of Christmas, how can I not be smiling away? I find myself smiling ever so often just because it's Christmas. It's a wonderful feeling I guess....
So here it comes, Christmas. For those who are not Christians who read this... really, what are you seeking for? You didn't even need to look, God sent Himself to you through Jesus Christ His son. He gave you the only gift no other could give. Imagine, opening the wrapping to find the most eternal, everlasting and precious gift that men across the generations have been seeking for. Everlasting life, freedom from Sin, Love. Everything and more, and all you need to do is thank Him, Trust Him and Totally love Him for who He is and what He did. It's that Simple.
'Even Wise Men sought for Jesus.'
think about that for a while. :)
Have a Blessed Christmas and a Joyous New Year one and all!
Taken from http://www.reverendfun.com/?date=20071221
So here it comes, Christmas. For those who are not Christians who read this... really, what are you seeking for? You didn't even need to look, God sent Himself to you through Jesus Christ His son. He gave you the only gift no other could give. Imagine, opening the wrapping to find the most eternal, everlasting and precious gift that men across the generations have been seeking for. Everlasting life, freedom from Sin, Love. Everything and more, and all you need to do is thank Him, Trust Him and Totally love Him for who He is and what He did. It's that Simple.
'Even Wise Men sought for Jesus.'
think about that for a while. :)
Have a Blessed Christmas and a Joyous New Year one and all!
Taken from http://www.reverendfun.com/?date=20071221Sunday, December 16, 2007
Love one another
A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another. - John 13:34-35
Today's YF was good... it was camp echo and so most of the campers came down to recollect some lessons learnt during camp, to view some photos and to reflect on Mt Belumut. :) Something popped in my head that has stuck with me throughout the day though.
If we are called to love everyone equally, even our enemies... how do you love a brother/sister who doesn't want your love? Someone who ignores you or pushes you aside... doesn't give you any of their time just because. Now, we're talkin bout your side here and not their side... how then do you be a brother/sister to them? How do you love them when they run away from you?
Now to take it one step further, what is 'loving' your bro/sis? What's appropriate and inappropriate as a church body.... just some thots.
It's the Christmas season. I wonder, issit possible to put hatred aside, resentment, previous grudges, anger, bitterness and alienation away and just love?
I dunno bout the general public but to me, I have but one wish [of course i have many but this ranks the highest]... that this Christmas period, i will be at peace with everyone. That whatever has happened be forgotten just for a while and everyone smile at each other.
All i want is for you to look at me and smile. Just for Christmas.
Why? issit that hard to love?
Friday, December 14, 2007
Life so far
Well, life so far has been interesting, complicated and yet still had points worth living for [of course life is worth living for. duh]
The past few days were away from work... came back from the exercise on monday, got OFF given to us on tues and friday [today], wed and thurs were good too coz i was on 2days of MC. And yes, i'm STILL sick... sighz. haha... but maybe it's coz i didn't spend the 2 days resting at home. yeh but i can't coz i had things to do, places to go to, people to meet, stuff to buy.
The past week kinda passed nicely. Spent much of my time with a good friend whom i know i'll miss in a few weeks time. I guess it's stealing whatever time i can have with that friend before that friend flies overseas for a long time. Anyways, we both were free and had somehow really freaky agendas coz they all involved the same places. So yeh... managed to get some shopping done [satisfied but still lacking] before the Christmas crowd hit... Argh. need to buy wrapping paper. Then there were times of this week that made me really stop and think whether i should really be out shopping when i was sick or what... but i knew i had to if i wanted to get stuff before they jacked the prices up and all that jazz.
I have had to also watch myself in terms of what i did, said and thought... it's been an interesting week la i'd say.
YAF last nite was fun fun fun. We had games nite and jus relaxed playing games. i had to watch myself laughing coz i was coughing and laughing would induce a strain of cough that was hard to stop.. but stupid B was making it hard not to laugh when he kept making dumb jokes and stuff... it was really a good time of relaxing and fun with board games. :) we played Cranium and Bible Trivia. haha... good good. :) stayed quite late though but had a lift home.
Yeh, so here i am sitting here on a friday afternoon 1.45pm... i woke 45 minutes ago. And am still sick. will use the day to clear some stuff that i have to do like christmas cards and Heroes episodes... not to mention i managed to get a lot of movies from airy last nite. yayz. got much to watch over the holiday season... haha..
Take care people and dun think too much during this holiday period. it's not good. jus enjoy yourself.
The past few days were away from work... came back from the exercise on monday, got OFF given to us on tues and friday [today], wed and thurs were good too coz i was on 2days of MC. And yes, i'm STILL sick... sighz. haha... but maybe it's coz i didn't spend the 2 days resting at home. yeh but i can't coz i had things to do, places to go to, people to meet, stuff to buy.
The past week kinda passed nicely. Spent much of my time with a good friend whom i know i'll miss in a few weeks time. I guess it's stealing whatever time i can have with that friend before that friend flies overseas for a long time. Anyways, we both were free and had somehow really freaky agendas coz they all involved the same places. So yeh... managed to get some shopping done [satisfied but still lacking] before the Christmas crowd hit... Argh. need to buy wrapping paper. Then there were times of this week that made me really stop and think whether i should really be out shopping when i was sick or what... but i knew i had to if i wanted to get stuff before they jacked the prices up and all that jazz.
I have had to also watch myself in terms of what i did, said and thought... it's been an interesting week la i'd say.
YAF last nite was fun fun fun. We had games nite and jus relaxed playing games. i had to watch myself laughing coz i was coughing and laughing would induce a strain of cough that was hard to stop.. but stupid B was making it hard not to laugh when he kept making dumb jokes and stuff... it was really a good time of relaxing and fun with board games. :) we played Cranium and Bible Trivia. haha... good good. :) stayed quite late though but had a lift home.
Yeh, so here i am sitting here on a friday afternoon 1.45pm... i woke 45 minutes ago. And am still sick. will use the day to clear some stuff that i have to do like christmas cards and Heroes episodes... not to mention i managed to get a lot of movies from airy last nite. yayz. got much to watch over the holiday season... haha..
Take care people and dun think too much during this holiday period. it's not good. jus enjoy yourself.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Back from SPT
Too tired but I'm back from SPT. it was great. Learnt alot and accomplished more.
Thank You for protecting and keeping them safe. You know how worried I was for them but You had them in Your hands and thoughts all along. Trusting in You is never futile.
Welcome back Youths. YF Camp sounded fun.
On other notes, I'm getting older and older by the day. I'm not talkin bout age, mentality, mindsets, interaction with people... Everything. Less.... Fun. :)
how do i know that? well, this is pure evidence: "The blog post ends here coz i dun feel like blogging anymore... or maybe it's just coz i'm just tired." :)
Thank You for protecting and keeping them safe. You know how worried I was for them but You had them in Your hands and thoughts all along. Trusting in You is never futile.
Welcome back Youths. YF Camp sounded fun.
On other notes, I'm getting older and older by the day. I'm not talkin bout age, mentality, mindsets, interaction with people... Everything. Less.... Fun. :)
how do i know that? well, this is pure evidence: "The blog post ends here coz i dun feel like blogging anymore... or maybe it's just coz i'm just tired." :)
Monday, December 03, 2007
最長的電影 Lyrics + SPT
I'm not going to be online from Monday [3rd Dec] till the next monday [10th Dec]. I'm going for some Section Proficiency Test... 4 days, 3 nights outfield too lor! haha sighz... call or sms me... i dun mind the cheer up. I've got my phone charger so no worries. :) Take care of yourselves too k? Esp the youth who are climbinb Mt. Belumut...
I'm posting these up coz they're such beautiful lyrics. They come from Jay Chou's latest album... and they're really sad words but yet has such a sweet heart-string tugging melody behind them all. Give the song a listen... it's on top of the tagboard. :) my fav song from the album as of now.
我们的开始是很长的电影
Wo men de kai shi shi hen chang de dian ying
Our relationship is the longest movie
放映了三年
Fang ying le san nian
It has been showing for three years
我票都还留着
Wo piao dou hai liu zhe
I'm still keeping the ticket
冰上的芭蕾脑海中还在旋转
Bing shang de ba lei nao hai zhong hai zai xuan zhuan
The ballet on ice is still revolving in my mind
望着你慢慢忘记你
Wang zhe ni man man wang ji ni
Looking at yet slowly forgetting you
## 朦胧的时间 我们溜了多远
Meng long de shi jian Wo men liu le duo yuan
In the haze of time How far we have skated
冰刀划的圈 圈起了谁改变
Bing dao hua de quan Quan qi le shei gai bian
The circles made by the skates' blades, whoever's in it changes
如果再重来 会不会稍嫌狼狈
Ru guo zai chong lai Hui bu hui shao xian lang bei
If we could start all over again, will it be a tad too awkward
爱是不是不开口才珍贵 ##
Ai shi bu shi bu kai kou cai zhen gui
Is love more precious when it is kept in the heart?
** 再给我两分钟
zai gei wo liang fen zhong
Please give me two more minutes
让我把记忆结成冰
Rang wo ba ji yi jie cheng bing
Let me freeze these memories forever
别融化了眼泪
Bie rong hua le yan lei
Don't let your tears fall
你妆都花了
Ni zhuang dou hua le
Smudging your makeup
要我怎麽记得
Yao wo zen me ji de
How can I remember?
记得你叫我忘了吧
Ji de ni jiao wo wang le ba
I remember you told me to forget
记得你叫我忘了吧
Ji de ni jiao wo wang le ba
I remember you told me to forget
你说你会哭
Ni shuo ni hui ku
You said you would cry
不是因为在乎 **
Bu shi yin wei zai hu
But not because you care
I'm posting these up coz they're such beautiful lyrics. They come from Jay Chou's latest album... and they're really sad words but yet has such a sweet heart-string tugging melody behind them all. Give the song a listen... it's on top of the tagboard. :) my fav song from the album as of now.
我们的开始是很长的电影
Wo men de kai shi shi hen chang de dian ying
Our relationship is the longest movie
放映了三年
Fang ying le san nian
It has been showing for three years
我票都还留着
Wo piao dou hai liu zhe
I'm still keeping the ticket
冰上的芭蕾脑海中还在旋转
Bing shang de ba lei nao hai zhong hai zai xuan zhuan
The ballet on ice is still revolving in my mind
望着你慢慢忘记你
Wang zhe ni man man wang ji ni
Looking at yet slowly forgetting you
## 朦胧的时间 我们溜了多远
Meng long de shi jian Wo men liu le duo yuan
In the haze of time How far we have skated
冰刀划的圈 圈起了谁改变
Bing dao hua de quan Quan qi le shei gai bian
The circles made by the skates' blades, whoever's in it changes
如果再重来 会不会稍嫌狼狈
Ru guo zai chong lai Hui bu hui shao xian lang bei
If we could start all over again, will it be a tad too awkward
爱是不是不开口才珍贵 ##
Ai shi bu shi bu kai kou cai zhen gui
Is love more precious when it is kept in the heart?
** 再给我两分钟
zai gei wo liang fen zhong
Please give me two more minutes
让我把记忆结成冰
Rang wo ba ji yi jie cheng bing
Let me freeze these memories forever
别融化了眼泪
Bie rong hua le yan lei
Don't let your tears fall
你妆都花了
Ni zhuang dou hua le
Smudging your makeup
要我怎麽记得
Yao wo zen me ji de
How can I remember?
记得你叫我忘了吧
Ji de ni jiao wo wang le ba
I remember you told me to forget
记得你叫我忘了吧
Ji de ni jiao wo wang le ba
I remember you told me to forget
你说你会哭
Ni shuo ni hui ku
You said you would cry
不是因为在乎 **
Bu shi yin wei zai hu
But not because you care
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Reasons
It's funny, recently i've been finding myself doing a lot of things beyond reason... I wonder to myself, hmmm why am i doing this.
no reason.
like today. plus... i miss angelston. dun ask why, i just do.
Monday, November 19, 2007
Another Failure
You know. I feel really down right now. I'm just frustrated at myself and how I messed up again. How many people do I have to hurt to realize that it's not working out. Why didn't it go the way it would/should/could have?
Why do we get close to people if it only leads us to get hurt more?
The 3rd one I messed up. And this one, looks bad. I really did it this time. I messed up big time. Whatever it is, I'll get out of the way and try not to hurt anyone else anymore. I just hate it coz I didn't know. Till now. Saying sorry doesn't cut it, it doesn't even make it right.
I wonder how God takes it. His creation constantly sinning, turning away from Him and hurting Him. Yet He doesn't give up on them, on us, on me. God, I'm sorry, I bring this failure of a friendship to You. I don't want to mess it anymore. If it pleases You, mend it. If not, help me to learn from it and forgive me for it. God, I surrender it to Your hands.
I'm sorry, God.
Why do we get close to people if it only leads us to get hurt more?
The 3rd one I messed up. And this one, looks bad. I really did it this time. I messed up big time. Whatever it is, I'll get out of the way and try not to hurt anyone else anymore. I just hate it coz I didn't know. Till now. Saying sorry doesn't cut it, it doesn't even make it right.
I wonder how God takes it. His creation constantly sinning, turning away from Him and hurting Him. Yet He doesn't give up on them, on us, on me. God, I'm sorry, I bring this failure of a friendship to You. I don't want to mess it anymore. If it pleases You, mend it. If not, help me to learn from it and forgive me for it. God, I surrender it to Your hands.
I'm sorry, God.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Exercise Over
Wow... this exercise was super memorable. coz i dun really have a lot of time to blog, let me cut things short... i almost died this exercise!!! haha... let me tell ya why.
We were activated at bout 1am to go repair one of the rigs [vehicles] and so we drove off in our 5 tonner [it's like a huge van.. you've seen them on the roads]
sumthing like this... anyways.. it's got this canvas covering the top rite? yeh.. so we left base camp to the deployment ground to look for the rig.. however, we encountered a really weird route which snaked upwards onto a slope that was muddy and super bumpy.. trust me, we were being thrown around inside the tonner. and it was real scary coz it's those kind of situations that you're jus waiting for the tonner to hit a rock or a ditch and either fly or tumble sideways down... i'm serious, i was legit-ly scared for my life there and then... then to make things worse a large branch [almost like a tree trunk coz it was so huge] impaled the tonner's canvas... like it stuck right thru...
wanna know the scary part? it impaled the tonner's canvas near my head.. it was like.. *psssshhht* and i looked left and there was this trunk two person's head-length away... i was like HO SHIT... hahaha... it was like damn... i could have died... so in the end we got out of the tonner and realized we were stuck coz the branch was lodged into the canvas and it didn't allow the tonner to move forward OR backward without ripping the canvas or the metal structure holding the canvas together [which was already bent]... yeh so in the end we waited in the forest trying to contact HQ to send rescue... and it was already like 2am... then when they came, they were sounding their horn and so were we but they said they couldn't hear us at all... my sgt joked that we were in some 3rd dimension... it wasn't really that funny then. haha...
so when they finally arrived, we pulled back the whole canvas sheet [5 of us] and managed to hack and kick and pull the branch till it was bent in a way [coz it was too thick to cut] and we managed to get our way thru... finally got to the deployment ground at like 3am and my sgt went to repair the vehicle while 2 of u s stayed back to clean up the tonner. there was leaves, wood, gunk from the 'accident'... then it started to rain.
oh my gosh. so i frantically woke my fren up and we scrambled like idiotic ants-that's-gonna-drown and got the canvas pulled back... like hell lor. it was a 5 man job can!!! haha... but there was still a problem... there was a gaping tear.. so we improvised and managed to collect the rain water in a large box meant to keep our tools and spares... haha...
what an eventful night. :) anyways, exercise finally over and i got half day off to rest... managed to do quite a lot of things this morning. 2 rounds of laundry and washed the car. mwhaha see! life still goes on when the parents are out of town can! heh.
hope everyone's doing ok. the Os are over!!! yayz.. haha i hope to see EVERYONE back in YF... esp those who took their Os... it's time God came back in right? [though it'd have been good if He never left]. :)
We were activated at bout 1am to go repair one of the rigs [vehicles] and so we drove off in our 5 tonner [it's like a huge van.. you've seen them on the roads]
sumthing like this... anyways.. it's got this canvas covering the top rite? yeh.. so we left base camp to the deployment ground to look for the rig.. however, we encountered a really weird route which snaked upwards onto a slope that was muddy and super bumpy.. trust me, we were being thrown around inside the tonner. and it was real scary coz it's those kind of situations that you're jus waiting for the tonner to hit a rock or a ditch and either fly or tumble sideways down... i'm serious, i was legit-ly scared for my life there and then... then to make things worse a large branch [almost like a tree trunk coz it was so huge] impaled the tonner's canvas... like it stuck right thru...
wanna know the scary part? it impaled the tonner's canvas near my head.. it was like.. *psssshhht* and i looked left and there was this trunk two person's head-length away... i was like HO SHIT... hahaha... it was like damn... i could have died... so in the end we got out of the tonner and realized we were stuck coz the branch was lodged into the canvas and it didn't allow the tonner to move forward OR backward without ripping the canvas or the metal structure holding the canvas together [which was already bent]... yeh so in the end we waited in the forest trying to contact HQ to send rescue... and it was already like 2am... then when they came, they were sounding their horn and so were we but they said they couldn't hear us at all... my sgt joked that we were in some 3rd dimension... it wasn't really that funny then. haha...
so when they finally arrived, we pulled back the whole canvas sheet [5 of us] and managed to hack and kick and pull the branch till it was bent in a way [coz it was too thick to cut] and we managed to get our way thru... finally got to the deployment ground at like 3am and my sgt went to repair the vehicle while 2 of u s stayed back to clean up the tonner. there was leaves, wood, gunk from the 'accident'... then it started to rain.
-_-;
oh my gosh. so i frantically woke my fren up and we scrambled like idiotic ants-that's-gonna-drown and got the canvas pulled back... like hell lor. it was a 5 man job can!!! haha... but there was still a problem... there was a gaping tear.. so we improvised and managed to collect the rain water in a large box meant to keep our tools and spares... haha...
what an eventful night. :) anyways, exercise finally over and i got half day off to rest... managed to do quite a lot of things this morning. 2 rounds of laundry and washed the car. mwhaha see! life still goes on when the parents are out of town can! heh.
hope everyone's doing ok. the Os are over!!! yayz.. haha i hope to see EVERYONE back in YF... esp those who took their Os... it's time God came back in right? [though it'd have been good if He never left]. :)
Monday, November 12, 2007
Tech Squad
I'll be away from Monday - Thursday.
Army Exercise... i'm still reachable via handphone [pending deployment ground's reception]
take care of yourself and pray for no rain. thanks. See ya people.
Army Exercise... i'm still reachable via handphone [pending deployment ground's reception]
take care of yourself and pray for no rain. thanks. See ya people.
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
My Little breath of fresh air
Today was needed, much needed. Thanks for coming out of your way to meet up. Even if it was just for a few hours, today helped me get my mind off a lot of things that were chocked up since yesterday.
My little breath of fresh air, you are. At least for now, i'm still really appreciative of our frenship and the needlessness to really tell each other how much we appreciate the other's company.
Bowling tml... coming? :)
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