Reading old chat logs isn't good for the mental, emotional and spiritual soul. why do i even keep them? haha... maybe coz some parts of them make me smile. I have no idea. The idea and the thought of moving on is so easy to type or say but hard to do. Found this pic off the internet. thot it was a real nice pic... would love to take a pic like that myself. but i'd have to find 2 willing parties and a nice camera. haha.. so for now, i'll jus take it off the net. But i love it. and it represents what i'm feeling right now. :) dun ask... jus let me blog bout it.
p.s. i'm FINE so dun tag my blog or sms me asking me how i'm feeling now. SERIOUSLY... i'm fine. jus didn't wanna lose this moment so i'll blog about it. :) so 5 years later when i read this again i'll remember i sat at home one tuesday afternoon with nuthing to do but wait for time to pass. And i ended up reading chat logs and got into a stupid state of sadness that allowed my lil devil a chance to breathe fresh air. :) Thank God that He came and subdued the devil and took control once again. :) God's good.

Sorry i haven't been blogging for a while.

Nuthing much to blog about, but i'll be blogging soon la. i hope. :P haha... but yeh, jus blogging now to let ya guys know i'm not dead or what... umm yeh. :P

Latest updates in my life... been hunting for a job. so if anyone knows some auntie or uncle that needs someone to maybe do a power point presentation or a website for them, let me know and we can work out the payment. :) wouldn't mind free-lance jobs like that. thankies. hahaha... will blog more after my shower.

I'm going to Hollywood!!! Haha.. gee
go ahead, click it. :P

So i made it for the auditions if you can see in the picture above. :) no big surprise actually.. i talk to August quite a bit and all plus the fact that they desperately need guys for the chorus line and lead roles and all that jazz... lolz. so yay yay. nonetheless, it was still quite special receiving my first successful audition letter. haha. so corney, he ACTUALLY did it on yellow paper... gosh. haha should have helped him design it la. so... plain... in Simon Cowell's words, "insipid". :) but nice la. haha

Anyways, that's not really why i'm blogging la... Went to sleep last nite praying real hard that God would heal me so i could go to church today. When i woke, still felt a bit unwell but i made myself go to church la. i really needed to go down. This week has had it's Super highs [Vday] and it's super lows [depression set in midweek]. Yeh so i was quite low thruout the week due to some issues and all... sick and all mahz. :P Yeh, so really needed the spiritual re-charging and i had already missed YF on sat... so managed to go church and it was quite an experience i had never had that intense b4... really felt like i was close to God today.
The worship was wowz... hard to describe but as i sang the second song, couldn't help it. started tearing and really thanked God there and then for how wonderful it felt like to be in church. to be standing amidst other brethren singing to God. the sound of a corporate worship session was jus WONDERFUL. And when the ladies sang alone, they sounded angelic... my mind really imagined what a JOYFUL time it'll be in the heavens when the angelic choir and the rest of His people raise their praises in one voice.
Thankfully managed to wipe them tears away and re-compose myself b4 anyone started noticing and asking silly questions i'd hate to reply to. ahha... but it was really wowz. :) I was wondering to myself how sumtimes we jus take church for granted. expected to be there everyweek... now wad if you were bed-ridden and never able to go to church? or if your parents objected to your faith [like my fren's situation is]... now how much would church mean to you, compared to those 2 situations?

I thank God that He gave me a chance to really treasure church above anything i felt that week. It's like my weekly date with God and His people. And i wouldn't trade sunday service for ANYTHING.... well, almost anything. coz i'd trade that for Heaven. HAHA.

Took this picture recently.. i think yesterday. it was an ad in the papers and i thot the kid looked SO cute la... goodness. fatty fatty one. hahah and then the nose red red. awww.. hahaha..


On to more important things... my current interest is RINGS! hahaha You Rong's mum apparently bought this ring from Taka Jewellery for like $3... so she bought it for everyone in the family. super funny la when he was telling me... whole family all wearing the ring. LOLZ... anyways... the ring is below... the $3 ring... the last picture in this entry... however, it isn't that design. ahaha
Yeh so this is MY ring... owned it for a while now. 2 years i suppose.. can't remember. :) it's engraved inside wif a bible verse... nice nice. love it... but i want another one i think... dunno. ahha dun normally wear it.. only wear the necklace... coz wear the ring a bit funny.


Close up of the ring. sorry it's blur... but jus showing the thickness of it and all la... it's very nice plain and simple.. i think i bought it for $10... should be. haha from Century Square. :)


Yeh, this is the promo they have now... i was going to go buy it or at least take a look at it today before YF.. but i fell super ill last nite. high fever and all so i had to stay home today and rest. so ARGH coz i missed Yf. and i'll be VERY miserable if i have to miss church tml... pls God, i want to go to church pls plspls....

Anyhowz, what do you guys think of the ring? haha... i will have to see it in person to see whether i wanna buy it... but it's quite a steal. :)

Wanna share a song with anyone out there reading. Enjoy. The song is really nice.

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Silje Nergaard - I Don't Want To See You Cry

There is no tender way to say it's the end
And so win or lose
I am forced to choose
Between a lover and a loving friend
Let me hear you say
How you curse the day
You opened up your heart to me
That you ever invited me in
Tell me I'm the loser and you win

I don't want to see you cry
I beg you try
Not to let the pain I'm causing reach your eyes
I don't want to see you cry
Aim your words like spears
Don't break me up by breaking down in tears

Hide your pain but when push comes to shove
Don't keep your pride
Locked deep inside
Rage against the dying of my love
Don't sigh my name
Give me all the blame
Call me heartless call me cruel
And accuse me of dealing in lies
Just don't let my leaving cloud your eyes

I don't want to see you cry
I beg you try
Not to let the pain I'm causing reach your eyes
I don't want to see you cry
Aim your words like spears
Don't break me up by breaking down in tears

Dreams come... dreams go
Some fade... some grow
Dream on, dream on
You've got no dream on
After I've gone

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Ask me for the song if you want. It's... painful. But I had to blog about it. Goodness. Silje is singing to me. When someone won't, Silje will. I was so shocked to read the lyrics. might as well have put "inspired by Joel Tan" at the top and I wouldn't have been surprised.
Funny how sumtimes songs seem to sing EXACTLY the situation you're going thru. funny huh? Well, i'm not really laughing. Thanks Silje.

Today i met up with Sing for her to study and me to kill time. I managed to do 2 weeks of my CE Class homework. YAY. more like we both needed the company, so yeh, met her at 3plus coz i was late... thot she'd let me buy coffee coz i was late but my plan was foiled and it only made me look like i was late. argh. haha next time i'm jus gonna not look for a reason or fake one out and jus pay. hahaha anyways, here are the photos!

Me on the train. yes i got bored. Was watching the first bits of Miss Congeniality 2 on my Zen Vision and just took out my phone, snapped this pic and continued watching. dun ask why i snapped it, jus spur of the moment, no pose no look jus snap kinda pics. haha [Apologies for the dao look. didn't wanna smile for this candid shot]

Yeh so met up wif Yan Sing and she was studying already.. can you see the cup at the bottom left corner of this pic? that's hers. purposely bought a big cup before i came so
1. I can't pay
2. I can't buy her a second cup.
Wargh. haha but anyways, she was studying hard.. really hard memorizing and glancing thru her lecture notes. how do i know she was studying really hard? coz... *points to next pic*

Need I even put any words for this pic? :) grinz. and i know i'm gonna get whacked for this.. but took it while she was taking her break nap. :) poor dear... was so tired she had to nap for a while... a while... TWENTY MINUTES. hahaha. Sigh, i'm SO gonna die for saying that.

Took this pic coz it was so cool. :) did ya know this starbucks at Novena has board games?!?!? didn't know and Sing needed a break. dun look at me, she needed another break alrite? aha so she challenged me to Dumb.. or well, more widely known and Checkers... so played wif her la. shant tell you the score... let's jus say i'll get whacked REAL bad. grinz. it was fun la... playing wif her and her mind. AHHA. anyways, nice shot rite? :)

Then Chin Fang and Angel came at 4... and they bought their drinks and got Snacks and Ladders and went to play that. haha i joined their second game and let's jus say... today was a good day for me at board games. haha Angel lost. MWHAHAHA. yay! now i'm gonna get whacked by 2 people. lol. worth it la. haha

Yeh, then later on Xin Ying, another fren, came by and Angel and her took this pic. ahha quite funny... supposed to send it to her tonite but she's not online... hmmmz. hahaha


After that we all went to subway to eat.. yummy and headed home. haha quite a fun day. much better than staying at home all day. yay! hahaha

***UPDATED! New Photos Below. Please scroll down to see that this entry is updated***

So it's Valentine's Day and i can't NOT blog rite? :) Thought i'd stay home this year [like every other year since i was 1]... but in the end i didn't. Went out at 2 plus to meet Angel, Yan Sing, Leona and Nick [her bf] for Coffee at Pacific Coffee. :) Decided to do a small sumthing for the girls coz it's Vday and me being the nice guy fren that i am. :) So here's the gift i made for them. Angel's and Sing's are the same coz i thot the text was really nice and stuff. For intellect-sake, i'll only post Angel's up here la coz no point putting Sing's one up here since she won't see it and it's the same as Angel's except the name. :)

yeh so those were the gifts. A4 size and i had it laminated... which made me have to forgo my coffee... painful coz i was thinking OOO Rocky Road chillino! haha...

Managed to chat up wif Leona and Nick. First time i'm seeing him mah and i've heard lots about him... He reminds me SO much of Kee Wen la.. i tell you, same mould. haha... Anyways, the funny thing was that when i was at City hall before i met them, i SWEAR i saw him... but i knew it's either Nick or his twin brother la.. and the girl he was with WASN'T Leona la! so i smsed her straight away saying i saw either one... ahha then i realized after i smsed that what if it WAS nick.. and it wasn't Leona.. GASP! haha.. but thankfully Nick was with Leona at Tampines so it must have been his twin. LOL... heng. :P Yeh so nick was a nice fella, smiley and all ahha...
Yeh, then Yan Sing joined us LATE... Angel had already left for her second shift of work and couldn't pass her the gift... so Leona ended up being Angel's messenger. Haha... yeh she came and she was so pai seh so she bought us coffee. YAY! managed to get my coffee rush today. haha... Shared a White Chocolate Chillino with her coz i felt too bad spending her money. :) Yup, Leona gave her my gift too. it was quite funny. Anyways, after that we stayed for an hour chatting and stuff. Left and i'm here, home.. waiting for 9pm which is 50 minutes away... going out to meet up wif a few churchies for Prata Supper! Single's Supper. haha
Met Sean at city hall anyways, he was on his way to his Salsa class! wootz! haha..
This is the gift Angel made for all of us... so nice hor! alot of effort put into it to colour the Salt.. yeh, it's not easy at all. haha and she twisted our names and all. :) Leona and Yan Sing were grumbling and complaining how come i got one too when they have known her for so long and me barely half a year. MWHAHA.. :) I rule! :P

Overall, it was an enjoyable Vday. :) Couldn't not smile when i saw all the couples... it was nice to see Love in the air... but i thot to myself, it's quite sad if a Guy only shows his love on this day... or well, it would be better if love was expressed all the time. :) But most guys would say they aren't that rich. haha i understand. :) Happy Valentine's / Friendship Day everyone!

***Update Below!***

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Whee! So i jus came back from Prata Supper with a few churchies. :) Sean, Jun Yuan, Adrian, Debbie and Me. :) Got loads of pics so eat your heart out! hahaha it was SO fun! I Love my frens and how they made this VDay so fun without having to worry bout being Single. :) Sigh, it's actually so much more carefree being a Single, dun need to spend money on a big gift and lots of flowers and all. Being single surely has its benefits. seriously.

Here are the pics!!! First one i took coz they were like paparazzi lor.. all trying to take a pic of handsome me... sigh. That's Sean on the left and Adrian on the right. :)

This is a pic of Jun Yuan on the left and Sean on the right looking at the TV... some Chelsea match... so anti social but i thot their poses were hilarious. haha and i caught Sean while he was complaining about the match. ahha. with his hand and all. ahah so funny la both of them turning. :)

Debbie and I acting dumb and blur in front of the camera. :) Sigh.. so funny la... we made so many funny poses tonite.. all in Adrian's camera... trying to get them by tonite so i can update this entry for the third time. haha
One word for this picture... "DUH"

Sean joined in and we decided not to waste a shot. haha so here's us smiling really nicely. haha it's actually a really nice shot.

The best shot of the evening on my phone... Clearly it's SO cool lor... it's like i'm the only one looking at the pic and the rest are all in diff directions.. ART CAN! wowz. haha and it wasn't planned. jus said, STUPID POSE! Stretched out my hand and snap. hahah Brilliant shot. i really love it.. seriously. i think it's so nice. haha p.s. Debz, isn't this SO smu kind? all looking away.

The Following Pics are taken from other's cameras... sean and Adrian.
This is Sean and I acting SUPER dumb... finger up the nose and all. haha gosh!!! can't help laughing when i look at it. :)

Here's Jun Yuan and Sean posing for a shot. JY was quite poor thing... was studying there. aiyoh. haha... sian.

Debbie purposely spoilt this pic by acting like she's sleeping lor! had to take another one...

And so i returned the favour... got whacked by her quite badly after that.. but it was worth the expression on her face when she realized what i did. hahaha

I got a brainchild and decided to put my Photo Editting skills to the test.. took both the shots and decided to merge them into one of us both smiling. I did it. and i think i did it quite well. :) Quite proud of this shot coz it's cool... wouldn't think it was a merge of the two shots above. haha.. cool stuff huh? maybe i'll do one of us both sleeping. ahhaha

Finally, a proper pic of JY and Sean. haha They look so happy la.

Adrian and I... i think i look quite cool in this pic. wah. stylo. ahhaha

Sean and I SUPPOSED to be looking all cool and hip.. dunno why his face like that, i played my part well.. grrr sean, pang seh my expression. hahaha

Nice pic wif Sean and Debz. :) i think it's a great shot. everyone looks good here.

Adrian and Sean... the main photographers. heh

Finally, a last shot of all of us. :) It was such a fun group. mad, but fun.

So it was SO fun la. i'm still so high and happy. Wonderful way to end a Vday. :) We all interrogated each other about what we all did.. but being the smashing swinging singles we were, all didn't go dating. HAHA.. so who cares?!?!? we have each other!!! I love my frens!

So today in church... it was quite interesting. 2nd day of Auditions for Shalom Musical. :) After CE class, i went to register for my auditions and it was quite cool la. there were enuf pple in front of me so i had time to practice over and over again. Debz was jus before me so she was my marker. when she went in, time to stop fooling around and focus. haha. So yeh, went in there and took a pic. told august and ben [ben on the left and aug on the right] that i'll be blogging bout it. and here is the post. :) Stupid august took a photo of me after that. ahha i'll try to get it and add it to this entry later on in the week. :) Anyhowz... it was quite a fun experience.

Considering how I'm very comfortable with Ben and August, the Auditions were nothing too scary.. it wasn't at all actually. Thank Goodness coz actually, the setting is quite scary if i wasn't so familiar wif the "judges". The sanctuary is quite big la. then got one stupid mic in front makes your voice boom in the sanctuary. Air con was cold and it's like 4 eyes staring at you... Chelsea and Alicia P. were apparently spying in the gallery above. if you see the pic, you'll see figures there. haha not supposed to be there! hor hor. :) but i didn't even know they were there la. too focused on my song. :) Anyways. it went well. I sang Corrinne May's Journey. Love that song and she's got my range so it's quite comfortable. :) Was able to test my range wif a high note too and I changed the ending note to a high note so i ended nicer than the original song. :) I'd say it went well. Then i sang "joyful joyful" for the Hymn selection. Asked to choose either Joyful, Holy holy holy or Amazing Grace on the spot. :)
Yeh, so it was fun and a blast to just audition la. haha cool stuff. :) Will update wif Aug's camera phone pic when i get it. overall i enjoyed myself and thanks August for being so doofus even in auditions, helped the mood... though it wasn't scary, it would have surely helped me if i was nervous. :)

Hey! new skin! decided to change the skin coz the previous one had too many bugs. loved it though. :) and to appease a fren who says most Asian teens prefer navigational blogs which are a hassle, i've changed my blog stlye to non-clickable... quite idiot and fool-proof but by saying that i might offend someone if they STILL dunno how to read my entries. :)
The tagboard is below my "i want, read, watch, whatever". :) Basically, right column, far below. :) please do tag and dun hesitate to "comment" at the bottom of each individual entry if it's pertinent.
My Music review has been taken off. Sorry Jay Chou, his album only got internet time of about 3 days? or less. haha... yeh, no space to put it. :) so yeh, welcome to my new blog.

More pics of my recent trip to Angeline's house. That's all of us with Janelle. :) TP and SP CFers all proud to be holding the bundle of joy.
From me going clockwise: Maung, Janelle [aww], Dewi, Nicodemus, Meliza [TP], Chin Sing
Am so proud to be carrying her. She was so facinating and so facinated at my shirt. haha Or well, you know how babies all have this certain spaced out look like they're just taking in the whole world and trying to make sense of it all. Yeh, she was like that in my arms.... sigh.

Though i'm no where close to looking like a Father, Janelle might and prob is the only baby i've trusted myself carrying. :) She was a dear.

I dun need to say much. Just a bit of background. Went to Angeline's house today and visited her and Janelle. The pics are enuf to make you melt so view with caution. :) I'm getting a pic soon of me holding her. Waiting for Angeline to send me. First time i felt so "melty" when i carried her. Prob first baby i carried. Goodness. it was a rush. She's so adorable. Enjoy people. She's is the sweetest.

Ok so the dumb *Bleep bleep* Blogger has nicely deleted my post for no rhyme or reason... it jus disappeared suddenly... and i know i didn't delete it coz before deleting posts, they double check wif you if you want to delete the post... and i never even came to that blasted screen argh. pissed off.. :)
Changed Skin, sorry Internet Explorer Users... go get Firefox, you've lost my sympathy. :) i will no longer try to appeal to both firefox and IE users... if my blog doesn't align well, GO DOWNLOAD FIREFOX... if you feel that the links are hard to click, GO DOWNLOAD FIREFOX... if you are going to breathe a next breath of air, GO DOWNLOAD FIREFOX.

Yeh so anyways, i'm gonna summarize the post that got deleted... Thank You Aunty Wendy, she has purchased a Creative Vision M for me... Lime Green, 30GB. I'm loving it to bits. :) $514 at SimLim. pain. haha...

That's bout it... before my post gets deleted... Ciaoz!