Feeling better + NEED A BIKE!

Well, today was interesting. i played a back seat at work today coz i woke up from being sick last nite... still felt a bit jia lat but when i reached camp, the medicine slowly kicked in. good and bad.

good - i was feeling better coz i wasn't sniffling away and feverish.
bad - i was drowsy can. kept dozing off but my instructor was understanding and let me nod off here and there without making noise about it.

still felt achey and didn't have much energy the whole day but God let me have a relaxing day today so i didn't need much strength. Neither did He forget me when OT was cancelled today... so here i am, able to get some time out of camp. Went to bedok to hunt for bicycles but found none. instead, i found a good friend i dined with and watched 'War of Worlds' with... :) thanks, your dinner company was greatly appreciated. hehe. dunno if you read this anyways.

oh, and thanks to Cherie for being a real treat to the day. Only person who messaged me today who meant sumthing. thanks for asking and going out of your way and out of your normal behavior. :) i really do appreciate it if you didn't already know. knowing who you are, it must have been hard, that's why i really do want to dedicate at least one paragraph of this post to you. to tell you how much it meant to me that you asked, you.

On other news, i need/want a bike... bicycle. :) consider this. the walk into camp is about half an hour... everyday... and if i'm rushing or late.. i'm dead... so i've been meaning to purchase a bicycle for in-camp use only... thus, it has to be cheap and relatively not shiny or fanciful yet nice enuf to ride. :) budget is $50... but that still means i need to buy stuff like 2 locks [yes, i dun intend on losing it to some Bangla worker], a basket [so i can put my bag when i ride], a bell [so i dun knock some guy down] and some mud guards [so i dun get mud-spotted when i cycle out in the rain]. :)
if anyone has a 2nd hand bicycle they wanna throw/give/sell, please let me know... i'd love to consider it and chat up a possible deal. :) transportation can be arranged for the bike. :)

yup. rally call for help with the bicycle. :)

about the prev post... it's over and blogged so let it stay in history yeh? :)

on other news, i'm kinda jus drifting thru the day today. mind was kinda elsewhere too. :) nothing much i guess, jus wondering whether i'm lookin forward to this weekend and whether i'm ready to come to youth worship. :) dun wanna be leading with a fake front rite? :) prayin God will cont to inspire me and guide me.

tml and wed possibly OT. sighs... see how la. :)

Blasé

Yeh so today kinda bites [only coz i can't use the word Sucks]. despite some bits being nice and tangerine.

thanks for the guitar strap. it's not going to be forgotten. praise God with me yeh?

other than that... i guess there are somethings i do want to say but yet don't... so forgive me for being oh-so-vague. :)

You - didn't speak with you for a week. i pushed you out of my mind every day the thot of you came into my mind. didn't see you today. maybe it's for the better. will try one more week.

You - a glance maybe. will be prayin for you this week. hope i dun overdo it. :)

You - if you've got something you wanna say, you know you can always come and say it to my face. we're far beyond being courteous in terms of what we say to each other. if my words have bugged you or disturbed your evening, i'm sorry but you know why i'd send them. if i had gotten one reply, i would have stopped.

Justin - Thanks brother. your trust and faith in me will not be taken lightly. this is just the start of a good frenship.

Sorry for spoiling your mood with this post people. but i don't want to keep it bottled up. it eats at me. yup. Jodi, remember what i said in the foodcourt today. make sure when THAT happens, i dun become like THAT.. coz today, i kinda felt like THAT... like.. like i didn't need or want to be in church. :)

A friend recently left his church coz of some stuff. Hmmm. wonder if that's a possibility with me.

Wrote this today out of the blue...

The things I want
I can't have
The things I wait for
I have no patience for
The things I hate
I've become
The things I love
Are slowly losing meaning.

Have a good week. God be with you all. I'll be fine. I always am. Just dun step on my tail now.

Busy busy OT

I am so busy i can't even blog. got home last nite real late coz i OT-ed at work... They needed many many hands coz they gotta pass out [clear] quite a number of vehicles by monday. i expect to OT today again...

over time... over time.. over time over time over time!

ahha.. yup. and i can tell if i dun OT, i'll still be busy today coz of care ministry. sigh. dunno whether i should be so busy. saturday's yf prep for this week and next week is gonna suffer. ahah i jus know it. sigh. anyone care to help? lol. nvm that was rhetoric.

take care peeps. looking forward to this weekend.

Day of many thoughts

Wowz. yesterday was quite an interesting day. had normal church service and then went out for lunch with Eunice, Yong Jie, Jodi and Debbie to discuss Worship stuff. haha i didn't contribute much except maybe fries and a smile... haha... didn't discuss much that needed my contributions la i guess. haha

anyways, i will blog tonite coz i got no time now but yesterday was a day filled with thoughts and sharing with a close friend. i dunno why but everything seemed to pile up yesterday and i came to know of an interesting piece of news too that shocked me. haha.. but it's kinda cool though. ok, gotta go to camp/work now. see ya!

hope you like my blogskin... baby blue yes nick... but i love the layout and neatness of it... ok so my high C is screaming out yes yes yes... :P haha... i need structure no? :P

p.s. yayz for Friday. wheeeee!

Blessing others and encouraging them

So i set out a task for myself this week. to bless and encourage each exco member to the best of my abilities. i dun think i succeeded in getting everything i set out to do. but at least for the ones that i was able to, it made a difference.

I thank God for giving me the chance to see them smile. For giving me the opportunity to make someone's day or at least make an impact and help them in whatever way i did. whether it be sending an sms, chatting online, meeting them up for dinner, helping them with a task they didn't have time to do or whatever, i'm glad that at least i was able to help. the heart in me screams out for times like this where i can jus help people and see their smile and that's all that i need. :)

so to the exco members, i'm sorry for not being able to bless every one of you, i'm sure i failed to meet everyone's expectations and wishes but i pray that you be patient with me as i continue to make this not a weekly thing but a lifestyle of blessing you and others around us. thanks for giving me things to do too. :)

Just wanted to get it off my chest coz i guess i didn't wanna hold it in... jus glad that God is giving me a sorta spiritual high that helps me see life so much better. so much so that every day counts for Him and that as i travel thru this short span of time, may He help me bless as many people as i can.


YF today was great. i was glad that it all went well and some things along the way really put a smile on my face. thank the good Lord for that. :)
Tricia shared openly with the yf about the news. i think it not only takes guts but initiative and willpower to do that. strength unseen is always stronger than physical strength. and i respect that, that ability to admit when you know it's not good news. i could never. i would be too vulnerable.

Really dying to get the exco to hang and chill. think we all need a bit of it. Tricia needs it after what happened. Cheryl needs it coz her weeks have been jus mad packed it's even killing me watching her like this. Celia needs it coz our dearest sister has totally lost her voice and morale in so doing. Debbie needs it coz she's gotta take time to check on us. Julia needs it coz she's thankful for 16 years of life and frens. Nick needs it coz it's one sure fire way to keep on track with the Lord. and i need it coz i'm me. and i wanna spend time with them. i'd love to say Qiang needs it coz he's been away from the exco for so long.. but he's still away. sigh.

yup. kinda have quite a lot on my mind. personal things... i dunno what to do with some stuff i can't solve. i dun wanna talk here coz i fear i'll be too vague in wat i say coz i still do need to protect myself and those around me. maybe it's all self induced, maybe it's the body clock ticking, maybe it's just coz i see what i see around me. but i've been thinkin a bit.

pray thee well. the weekend is half done. i'm so happy, yet so sad. monday monday go away. dun come back another day. HAHA. :-S i'm just glad i dun have to stay in camp during weekdays.

whoever wants to date ask me out for dinner, do let me know. we'll work something out.

p.s. i jus realized i post blog posts on sundays and then mondays... then sundays... haha how interesting.

Just A Girl - Incomplete

Came up with a short little part of a song i plan to write one day... sooner the better. it's very general and the lyrics are really gross. but thot i'd post it up just for fun. :) It's not a song yet why? coz

1. No Chorus/Bridge
2. No tune

Heh... but here is my incomplete thots today.

She's just a girl
Who caught my eye
Saying she didn't catch my heart
Would just be a lie

Before I knew
We became close
We loved talking 'bout everything
I loved her the most

She's just a girl
My greatest joy
But come on, who am I kidding?
Look, I'm just a boy

I kinda hate it now i look at it. :)

Youth Worship - 5 Love Languages

Hey peeps. it's almost been a week since i last updated so here i am, sittin in front of the com trying to type out a blog post with nuthing much in my mind. :) the Exco are coming anytime for exco meeting so i shant be bloggin long. :)

just wanted to say that yesterday's yf was great. i volunteered to lead worship coz it's the first Youth Worship session for the year 2007... and i wanted to do something different la. set the bar right so that the future youth worships can also slowly change to be a more formal/serious setting and session... i jus want everyone to have a mindset that during these once-a-month meetings, we mean business... we're meeting the King of the Universe, the Holy prince of peace and the God of your lives and mine.. and yet, we're still meeting our Father... so we should come prepared and with a mindset to worship Him and to learn from His word... i mean, we only enforce it once a month so let's all try to give God the reverence He deserves. :)

yeh so i lead worship with Yuan and Adrian. Jo and i gave a special item called Wings of Dawn... but it's a chinese song la... and i loved it. ever since Yan Sing sang it to me last time a long long time ago, i've always liked it. Then CF sang it a few times [Sing too la.. haha] and so i wanted to present it also but never could find the opportunity to. :) but with Youth Worship, there's no problems...

which brings me to my next point. If there's any youth out there reading this [which i'm sure there is]... if you wanna put up a special item but too pai seh to do it in front of the whole church, you can use the Youth Worship sessions to present an item to the youth. :) so it's not that scary rite? i really really really wanna encourage this spirit coz i feel the Youths have a lot of talents [just look at the recent Lynn-Cheryl-Jamie combo] to give but are too scared or ashamed to present it during Service. :) So please, if you wanna put up an item... simple one also can no problems.... just approach me directly or any of the Exco members... and if you dunno who's in the Exco... now you can't say you don't coz they are...
Qiang, Debbie, Celia, Tricia, Nicholas, Julia, Cheryl and yours truly. :)

yup yup. everything went well and Rev Goh was really entertaining. still learnt quite a lot about the love languages even though i've read the book before [highly recommended. go pick it up... 5 Love Languages for Singles or Teenagers... either also can] the talk was GREAT... felt really encouraged after that too la.. not coz everyone was saying how they were glad i was there [i knew that would happen when i volunteered to share my answers.. argh] but coz the youth were enjoying the YF and learning from each other and Rev. Goh. :) that's what i love to see, youths being edified. now what better feeling can you get than that? :)

yup. life's good. might post up another post soon coz there are things going on in my head.. but this is it as of now. :) Take care peeps. tag me! haha

JB trip

Here's a video that we took during our recent shopping trip to malaysia. it was super fun jus getting away for a day to shop. :) added the words below so you can follow. typed out word for word.. you better appreciate it. haha



Rui: Hello my name is Rui. We jus came back from a Malaysia trip to... stop shaking the table, Ben. To JB city square and we had a lot of fun shopping. Probably my first time shopping without my family people. And i bought 2 tops! and yeh, another top also la. Yay! We'll skip Adrian for now.

Ben: My name is Ben. I bought a shirt... and that's pretty much it. Yuan Yuan.

Yuan: Urhhh. I need to sleep ah. Next time you go shopping in JB, wear better walking shoes. Next time you go shopping anywhere, wear better walking shoes.

Adrian: When you go JB, bring toilet paper coz there's no toilet paper in the toilets. And the toilet cost 20 sens. 20 sen. no 'S'

Yuan: Sumtimes, there's no toilet paper in Singapore also.

Jodi: Bcoz you share the same toilet with Zhi Han. Haha.

Wei En: Hi, i bought 1 dress and 6 handphone. They were cheap! what can i say, they were cheap. they were not expensive. 6 handphone... thingies... appendages.

Sab: When you go JB, remember to check the expiry date on your passport. I need to extend but i couldn't I... I.. I...

Ivan: I didn't go JB but i'm here for coffee with them.

Rui: Yeah, we waited an hour to get the bus back. And in our frustr... never mind.

Adrian: It was a very long wait.

Rui: This is our frustration. *shown tearing bus ticket* 2.40 ringget to... it's 2.40 sing to go there and it's 2.40 ringget to come back. doesn't make sense.

Jodi: Mala___ans are stupid. Haha.

Adrian: She's crazy.

Yuan: Ben looks like a gangster. tried to rob us.

The rest is nonsensical fun. :) enjoy

Bimbo Cheer

Oh.. my gosh,
I think i need a manicure.
The sun... i swear
is bleaching out my golden hair.
Red, blue, yellow, green.
What's the colour of my team.
I don't know... I don't care
I just wanna do my hair.
21, 34
i don't even know the score.
Go go, fight fight
As long as i look alright.

:) cool cheer can. haha but super bimbo yo.

No Sacrifice

Today's service was nice. The morning started out rushed coz i had posters to do, testimonies to fold and staple... all last minute. :) but i managed with the help of aaron and shannon. :0 haha...

Anyways, the point of me bloggin now is coz today's service was quite touching and nice. The songs that they picked today weren't like out of this world or any different from the normal.. yet they were nice to sing. nice range and all. haha. then there was the special item put up by Rachel, Ben, Adrian, Yuan, Cheryl, Lynn and Jamie.

They did their mime with the Jason Upton song 'No Sacrifice'... it was real good... but something during that special item moved me quite a lot and as i sat there, sumthing ran thru my mind and as i sang the song silently... i quietly almost broke down can. biting my lip, i struggled to maintain composure as the song rang thru my head. knowing the song, singing the next verse before it was sung, it stung my heart i guess.

Maybe it was coz he sang so well, maybe it was coz they danced so well. maybe it was coz she danced so well. maybe it's coz i couldn't stand singing lies to myself. i dunno. just felt halfway that what i sang didn't match what i felt.

yeh, but i thank God for reminding me thru the song that there are still so many things that i have to get right with God. Thanks to God la that He was there touching me thru that item. And i thank every performing who did sumthing today... the performance was really touching and good. :) you guys did a great job. it was really moving.

Other than that, today was quite good. thank God that i spent the day quite fruitfully. :) even now, Shawn Tiang is sitting next to me at home. haha... yeh that's bout it la. jus wanted to remember how i felt during today's performance. :) No sacrifice... let's all work together for it. :)

New Year's Eve

*** PHOTOS ADDED BELOW! ***

Here's the first part of the post. the dead no emotion listing of what happened.

New year's eve:
Went to church in the morning. Presented an item with Sean, Debbie Tan, Abigail. Accompanied 2 groups of people to eat lunch. Joined up with Jamie, Abi and Claudia and went to Orchard with a few other youths to pick up Nick's iPod. Went to Auntie Wendy's house and helped setup the place. Played a bit of Basketball. Hung around till the party started. Listened to a few testimonies. Counted down. Shook hands and sent my wishes. Stayed back and cleaned up. Played games in a cirlce, Whose line is it anyway with the youths. Sang songs and made jokes. Caught 2 hours of sleep. Woke, ate, cleaned up and left for Katong to play LAN. Came home and crashed. Woke up to get ready for JB with a few YAFers. Leaving soon.

ok, now the accounting's out of the way... here's my thots.

New Year's Eve:
Woke up quite stressed coz i was puttin up an item i just learnt the day before and i was majorly late since i forgot that i had to go early. stupid me. i really blame myself for not making it a priority in my useless brain. Anyways, after reaching there, it went quite well la. i think it sounded ok. anyways, put up the item [which in my opinion was horrible on my part].. heard feedback from the rest that they couldn't hear me and abi coz of the mic until halfway where the mic was adjusted... so thank goodness they only had half of the torture. haha.. anyways, did my testimony after that. spoke about army, YF leadership, YF younger ones steppin up, family [dad performing, mum's operation, sab's graduation] and finally shalom being a place i treasure a lot. then after service, went downstairs to talk to people like Luke and catch up with others who i always talk to too. After that we went out for lunch but i had no appetite. Was like, waiting for them to eat and then Nick called and said he's going orchard, asked me to join him. so i met up with him and we left for white sands. Met up with Jamie, Abi and Claudia and caught the train. made the journey with my music and thots flying thru my head as i couldn't help but look straight. I'm glad shawn was there coz it was nice i guess, seeing him all fine and all.
Went to orchard and just took the time to people watch and be myself, alone. Met up with jodi and Seng Lee and arranged transport so the girls could go together. Was hopin that transport was some other way but small matter rite? :) So upon reaching, was able to hang in Cherie's room with the youths after helping Uncle Aric setup tables and chairs. Just sitting there watching was a bit hard to do coz i would have loved to say sumthing to people. talked to claudia and managed to at least keep a short conversation going. :) hope she didn't feel left out.

People came and i had dinner. Got my shirt from Tricia. it has a heart that's half filled o... forget it. here's a pic.

Love the shirt and was really glad that i got it. thanks Tricia if you're reading it. i love it. :)

Anyways, after that, we had testimony sharing. Sat there in front of the crowd coz i was clicking the laptop. sitting there, it's like there was no crowd at all except one person. you know who you are. couldn't really focus that much coz my head was kinda filled with thots and all. every smile was like an earth shattering rock to my world. anyways, after that we had our countdown and joella stole my first 2007 hug. haha but it's ok. she had been buggin me for it for a long long time. :) managed to grab jamie in the hurry and blurry of things... mei, you're ultra skinny u know? :) haha... anyways, was hard prying her off, gripped me like some life float in a storm. haha. :) thanks mei. :) then she left after that with the rest of the crowd. Said bye to Auntie bee leng and all those who had to leave too... like the Puas....

after that we stayed back and cleaned up the total mess and had games that were super fun. had so much laughs and fun playing the "saat saat" game in a circle. haha... then we had whose line issit anyways and realized that i could actually think quite fast on my feet and it was tough yes, but i'm glad that we had some fun people who were sporting enuf to participate. :) aaron was a holler. :)

Yup, then we stayed up and tried to stay awake and all... fighting the ZZZ monster by entertaining each other with songs and on-the-spot jokes and lines. :) it was real fun. haha always singing about how Cheryl's falling asleep or Lynn's nodding off. haha sigh. but after a while, it was real hard and we slowly knocked out one by one. :P haha

Woke and had breakfast there... spent the morning jus hanging, chilling and being youths... played boggle, pictionary, basket ball. :) then we cleared up the place and left after lunch. it was still quite fun and surreal that it was already 2007. ended up in Katong with Adrian, Ben, Jodi, Yuan, Joash, Shawn for LANing... haha.. the Rubber clan still rocks i guess. :) it was like super fun playing with 7 other people. :) it's been a while i guess.

Yeh, then went home and almost crashed... haha cleared up the normal stuff like blogs and all and then crashed after my much needed shower. :) but it was a real fun experience i guess. having a great new year's party [kinda] and having fond memories of the first day of the new year. :)


Jodi, Rui, Sean and Rachel posing for a great new year's eve shot.





At the stroke of midnight, party poopers sent ablaze and abanging. Cheer was in the air as everyone ushered in the new year with a bang. literally.


Everyone captivated by a slideshow of the history of the YF done by Jodi. Full of incriminatingly bad shots of me yes... argh.


Playin some games to keep the atmosphere alive and awake. Stayover games are the fun-nest coz everyone's fighting sleep. :)


The girls playing boogle the next day. Look at the expression on their faces, sheer joy.


Charming Princes of the Youth Fellowship


Lovely Beauties of the Youth Fellowship


The youths who stayed for lunch and clean up. Took a group shot just before we left the place.

Christmas Eve

Christmas eve has come and gone. in a flurry of action, the date passed and all the months and weeks of practicing for the choir performance has finally come to a climax. it was a very different feel for once, sitting in the pews listening and watching the performance rather than being up there on stage giving the performance. :) dunno which i like better, but i know for sure that i could never enjoy this priviledge of sitting out of performances for long. I'll have to re-join the next big thing, it's just whether it's going to be soon or not.

The choir did very well. was encouraged to see many of them giving their all. August conducted well and his solo song was nice can!!! i didn't notice any slipups that caused me to cringe so dun worry august, if you're reading this, i have to tell you that your song was a blessing to me. your face super discouraged after that though, but to me... it doesn't matter... you did a great job. :)
Dad and mum were in the choir. i'm so glad that dad was performing with the choir and really had a fun time during practices and all. happy to hear whenever he relates fun times during rehearsals. :) hope that this won't be his last performance with the choir in time to come. :)

Jason, Thambi and I went all formal for the evening service. it was pretty cool la. glad i could wear my jacket again. was starting to miss it. it was a bit hot though, but that was only during the dinner downstairs so took it off.
Managed to fellowship with some youth like the Puas and others that were really nice and glad... haven't really had the chance to properly talk with people coz i've always had stuff on my mind on sundays. :S

After that, we hung around a long time, then some YAFers came over for a stayover/chill out session. played Taboo, Cards [some of them were la... i wasn't coz taboo was too fun], watching dvd later on and basically piggin out. what brightened the whole thing was that we sang carols and songs and just had a fun time laughing and just letting our hair down for one evening. it was nice. i sit here at 7am, with like 10 minutes of sleep only... watching tricia and nick dozing on the couches behind me... kinda nice and serene... light drizzle outside, sky's still dark and the weather's cooling. the washing has been done so nuthing to worry bout liao. Norah jones is lulling them to sleep while i just glance over occassionally to see that they're still on the couch and not on the floor. haha the rest have left already la...

Yeh, this Christmas feels a bit weird that there's nuthing BIG happening i guess. but big enuf rite? :) On a personal note, it's funny how Christmas makes you say stuff that you might wanna take back after that. Christmas makes you tell the truth and hide nothing, just coz it's Christmas. Well, i dunno whether i should have mentioned some stuff to some person... but the point is that it's out already and we'll see what happens from here on la. SMSing is so lame... so no feeling. :)

Really blessed by every gift that was given, a gift, a card, a handshake or just a smile... meant lots to me. :) so thanks to everyone who somehow made my Christmas special in terms of the horizontal relationship between men. God has been really good and He reminded me how much He's still there and that this season is always and still will be, all about Him. Vertical Relationship, settled! :)

Now to possibly catch another 10 minutes of sleep and then i should be refreshed to tackle the next few hours of awakeness again. haha... parents all tucked in upstairs... such a wonderful weather to sleep in.

"This is the night, of our dear Saviour's Birth."

Suppose

Suppose it were your birthday

And all your friends would come,

And gather round your fireplace

There in your happy home.

They come with smiles and gladness,

And bring their presents too.

But when they start to share them,

There's not a one for you.

They give them to each other,

A grand and costly lot.

But for the guest of honor,

They somehow just forgot.

You say such things don't happen,

Nor should it ever be;

It seems too crude and cruel,

For folks like you and me.

But friend, have you considered,

Just this is what men do?

Not, of course, to humans,

But of our Lord, its true.

We celebrate His birthday

With all our pomp and style;

But give to one another

And grieve Him all the while.

'Tis Christ we claim to honor

At this glad Christmastime;

Don't spend on friends the dollars

And give Him just a dime.

To give to one another

Indeed is very nice;

But best of all to Jesus,

For Him let's sacrifice.

His cause too long has suffered

By thoughtless, selfish men,

Let's bring to Christ the firstfruits,

And give our best to Him

--Fred D. Jarvis

Coz You Had a Bad Day

REAL REAL bad day for me today. here's a summary. :)

Started my day good. woke early enuf, left the house and got to the bus stop and all early. got the nice bus and was on my way to camp with enuf time to be early. and then....

i got on my bus. then i was eating my breakfast and dozing off in my bus.
then when i woke, i realized my bread was on the floor. and it was in a puddle of water on the bus floor.

so i lost my breakfast. never mind...

then i dozed off again and missed my stop. ended up at woodlands interchange. instead of taking the same bus back coz it's 20 minutes and i was already late for reportin to camp, i decided to try taking a cab.

so walked out and tried to hail a cab in the pouring rain for half an hour to no avail.
got so so stressed and decided to try 3 cab companies... 1 said no cabs. 2 were constantly engaged. so i decided that i was dead beyond help.

so i went to take the bus at the interchange.
and after it finally came, the bus left the interchange, made one round and came back coz the aircon spoilt so we all had to get off the bus and wait for the next one... at the same interchange stop. so we all got off and waited for the 'replacement' bus.

finally reached camp and it was pouring and all. huge puddles of water that went up to my ankles [and i'm not exaggerating]...
but thankfully i was wearing my boots so although it was all soaked, it wasn't THAT bad.

But hey, God was with me all the way. it was a bad day, but still, it's made by God so thank God for it. :)

Post camp post

The camp has finally come to a close and it's been a great 5 days of learning, fun and fellowship that the youth have been able to experience. The camp comm is fired up about the whole experience and have surely learnt a lot.

Although i wasn't able to go for the whole camp. i probably only went for 40% of the camp, it still spoke to me and it was sumthing i wouldn't have missed for the world. the Lord worked out as much as was given to me and i was really blessed to go for quite a lot of the camp actually.. Let's look at the schedule of events. Monday - Friday i had to be in army camp from 7am to 5.30pm daily.

Monday - Came to camp at 7pm, stayed over and woke the next morning at 5am to leave for army.
Tuesday - Got called for last minute guard duty so had to stay over in army camp till wed afternoon.
Wednesday - Due to me being called for duty last nite, i was given afternoon off. reached church at 2pm and spent the whole day there, went home to sleep.
Thursday - Last day in OETI so we had afternoon off. cabbed to church and reached at 1.30pm. Stayed over for funnite and woke up the next morning cabbing to boon lay since dinesh had the company paying for him.

So overall, i actually ended up in camp more than i expected and God really showed me how He can use the bad stuff to bring about good. really thank God for helping me be at the camp as much as He did. more than i could ever have asked for coz the days He let me go, those were the days that were important. thank God for that.

So yeh, the camp was a blast. really impressed with the camp comm and zhi yuan. i practically dumped everything to them and said, "if you need me, call me"... i only got like 1 call and it was about some other stuff. :) so i'm really glad everything went well and that the camp comm really did a fantastically fantabulous job la. i was really hoping that nuthing would go wrong and dishearten them but God had a bigger plan for each and every one of them.

The 'Batman and Robin' board was really good. thankful for it. much much love goes out to those who wrote/gave me stuff... really touched by some of the letters and gestures. :) when i came back on wednesday, they were all complaining how my cup had a plastic bag attached to it coz there was no more space... wah, i was so touched and moved that there was so much things for me to clear. feel real bad actually coz i didn't want to show that kinda image... i mean, quite pai seh wad! but thank God for each and every one of those who wrote me.
Next, i also wanna thank those who wrote to others.. to other people other than their batman or robin... it takes initiative to write a card/letter to someone even though you don't need to. thanks for being a blessing and showing how the Angel and Mortal board is supposed to be used. :)

wanna blog more, but i'm real tired. another time...

YF Camp

Superheroes!

Off to camp till friday. catch ya guys later! whee! it's finally here. yf camp.

w950i

In two months time, you're going to be mine. Till then, dun stop being beautiful. :)
*jelly knees*

Just some "bleahs" from me

these few days been kinda... busy in the mind. have been a bit distracted in my thinking. i have no idea what's bugging me or playing in my mind but haven't been very joyful lately. more like joyless. haha but things are doing fine i guess. nothing big happening. maybe that's the problem... nothing big's happening. i've thot of some possibilities as to why i might be a bit out of sorts.. but then again, most don't really make sense.

on other news, youth camp's coming up and stress level is getting a bit high as some stuff are still not finished or finalized... and it kinda bugs me that some of it is partly or fully my fault.. i guess things could be worse and if you look at it from a bird's eye view, everything's going well. but still, you know my particular attention to the minute details and those things bug me if they're out of place. groupings are a headache too. trying to get groups that won't have conflicts or strife... i hope that the groupings will be pleasant and that no one will rip anyone's head off during the camp la. :)

qiang's gone. he's finally left for Shanghai and i guess that empty space that he's left has been awfully silent and quiet. this little pocket of vacuum that leaves the air surrounding it with a gap next to them. The vacuum bubble just lingers on and it's kinda obstructing the flow of the other air... that's kinda how i feel with him gone. it's like, the air's just not complete. will surely miss him for these 4 months. that poot. no news from him so far. he better email back with pics. hahah. :) hope everything's going on smooth there la. :S so many uncertainties. but i guess it's good too. tests me and my friendships.

i'm sitting in the computer lab waiting for my theory test to start after lunch. it's just a major waste of my time coz if we could, we would take the test now and dismiss after lunch. but stupid rules say that we can't dismiss that early today so we're all hoping for something like 2pm. :P anything's better than nothing i guess. :P thank goodness Clarence drove today. then i can chiong to church to do camper. :P

had a nice long talk with my mum last night bout relationship issues, parent child relationship, future plans after ns, lots of things la. sad to say, these few days it gets real hard to jus have time to sit down and talk talk talk like we used to. schedules are packed... sigh. kinda sad la. :) but i'm glad we could share that moment and get her good advice on lots of things. she always is able to put things into perspective when i can't, or won't, really see things clearly.

all the best for your exams angel. :) hope you studied hard enuf and will do well. you never know la.. dun worry k? :) i'm sure you'll be ok. dun da bao... otherwise you have to eat next time too. then sure get fat. hahha.. ok lame. :)

yup. things are still playing in my mind i won't lie. :) but i've learnt to be strong and carry on. i mean, how else would i be standing here smiling everyday if i never learnt to push things aside... the mind is a wonderous thing... it's funny how things can remind you of sumthing and that sumthing can just totally mess you up. all the while, no one knows. :)

went to sitex. saw someone who looked a lot like smjr. i couldn't help but smile thinking how amazingly stunning she still is to me.

Hmmm

Drifting...

wandering...

yf camp's coming soon.

sorry got no posts... will post when i got things to blog bout. dun wanna be posting nuthing...

and everytime i feel like bloggin, it's coz i'm emo... not good time to blog. :)

so... keep watching!