Conviction of Sin, God's way of slapping you

Had OCF bible study today and despite the dodgily unsettling and so-so sermon, the bible study was once again, ocf's saving grace for me. i personally felt [matt agreed] that today's ocf felt a bit wishy washy... like not much structure and all... but we were both hoping our bible study session at the end of the sermon would be good... and mine was.. as always, bible study here at ocf has been the best i've found in melb so far... very engaging and willing to talk bout good points... i guess it comes with how they're all kind of willing to talk bout stuff... like all group bible studies, getting the first answers out are the hardest but once the gears start moving and the engine runs out of cold start, the discussion is pretty ok after that. :)

Yup, today during bible study, i shared with them about the imagery of us christians being magnifying glasses... that when someone uses a magnifying glass, they dun focus or see the glass, they see what it is magnifying... likewise, when we live our lives as christians, people see God through us and they shouldn't pay attention to us but what we're magnifying, which is God...
That was a reminder to never get proud or try to claim the credit that rightfully belongs to God. we also talked about how we should be accountable to each other, to uphold each other in prayer and to be always reminded that we are sinners in need of God's grace and saving power.

But what hits me hardest today wasn't from bible study or sermon but from life experience. I think God puts u thru a lot of things to not only mould and shape u but to also test you. and tonite, i felt tested. between doing what's right and what's safe... i felt like the prophet nathan who convicted david of his sin... how nathan spoke with words so boldly to king david about his sin i will not be able to fathom but when nathan talked to david about david's sin, God opened david's heart and he confessed, repented and asked for forgiveness... and tonite, i felt like i was put in a spot to tell someone something they didn't want to hear and something i didn't want to say... but i guess God made me say it and i still aren't very settled at how i feel i needed to say it but i'm sure after it's all said and done, the other party would agree...

I just pray that it's not for personal intentions or even that i would stop the work of God and the Holy Spirit. i pray that i'll be a brother rather than a scared fren.
I wish there was an easier way. And i'm sorry.