Ever bawled your eyes out during a movie? To have this unending sob keep rising to your nose, throat and eyes? To have your body rocking and to have your eyes well up with such force no dam in this world could hold?
And to finally let it out and let the tears trickle down your cheek as you breathe in that wave of comfort. To try to mask it with a laugh yet trying to keep watching though your vision's all watery?
Well, it happens from time to time. Gosh, it was a good feeling though. The LakeHouse. if you haven't, go watch it. *sniff*
So it's finally here, done and over. Christmas is here and the hype of the season has reached its pinnacle. The epitome of joy, love and sacrifice has been once again celebrated, remembered and cherished. The Lord's birth is once again commemorated with a big bang... i must say this Christmas was different... it was less than what i expected and much less... WOWed. :)
The gifts were exchanged, cards, handshakes of love and hugs of concern were given out freely. It was a wonderful time when the whole church was just lost in the festive mood of wishing every a blessed Christmas. For that split second, everyone was just happy. It was nice.
Then we had a stayover at D.Yeo's place. I'm still there actually. it's 6.32am and i'm waiting for the sun to rise so i'll have enough light and energy to go home. haha... kinda tired but i'm so used to not sleeping properly so it's ok. Yup, glad that i got some stuff for some people and some cards for some people and wished some people. u know, it's the whole yayz, i'm glad they're happy. haha...
yup. tired now. byez. blessed christmas one and all.
Christmas is finally coming... It's in 2 days. The festive CRAZY-NESS has started. Today's the first 'performance' and people are going mad i tell you... running here and there... but it's fun to be busy in the Lord and seeing the cheer of Christmas, how can I not be smiling away? I find myself smiling ever so often just because it's Christmas. It's a wonderful feeling I guess....
So here it comes, Christmas. For those who are not Christians who read this... really, what are you seeking for? You didn't even need to look, God sent Himself to you through Jesus Christ His son. He gave you the only gift no other could give. Imagine, opening the wrapping to find the most eternal, everlasting and precious gift that men across the generations have been seeking for. Everlasting life, freedom from Sin, Love. Everything and more, and all you need to do is thank Him, Trust Him and Totally love Him for who He is and what He did. It's that Simple.
'Even Wise Men sought for Jesus.'
think about that for a while. :)
Have a Blessed Christmas and a Joyous New Year one and all!
Taken from http://www.reverendfun.com/?date=20071221
A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another. - John 13:34-35
Today's YF was good... it was camp echo and so most of the campers came down to recollect some lessons learnt during camp, to view some photos and to reflect on Mt Belumut. :) Something popped in my head that has stuck with me throughout the day though.
If we are called to love everyone equally, even our enemies... how do you love a brother/sister who doesn't want your love? Someone who ignores you or pushes you aside... doesn't give you any of their time just because. Now, we're talkin bout your side here and not their side... how then do you be a brother/sister to them? How do you love them when they run away from you?
Now to take it one step further, what is 'loving' your bro/sis? What's appropriate and inappropriate as a church body.... just some thots.
It's the Christmas season. I wonder, issit possible to put hatred aside, resentment, previous grudges, anger, bitterness and alienation away and just love? I dunno bout the general public but to me, I have but one wish [of course i have many but this ranks the highest]... that this Christmas period, i will be at peace with everyone. That whatever has happened be forgotten just for a while and everyone smile at each other.
All i want is for you to look at me and smile. Just for Christmas. Why? issit that hard to love?
Well, life so far has been interesting, complicated and yet still had points worth living for [of course life is worth living for. duh]
The past few days were away from work... came back from the exercise on monday, got OFF given to us on tues and friday [today], wed and thurs were good too coz i was on 2days of MC. And yes, i'm STILL sick... sighz. haha... but maybe it's coz i didn't spend the 2 days resting at home. yeh but i can't coz i had things to do, places to go to, people to meet, stuff to buy.
The past week kinda passed nicely. Spent much of my time with a good friend whom i know i'll miss in a few weeks time. I guess it's stealing whatever time i can have with that friend before that friend flies overseas for a long time. Anyways, we both were free and had somehow really freaky agendas coz they all involved the same places. So yeh... managed to get some shopping done [satisfied but still lacking] before the Christmas crowd hit... Argh. need to buy wrapping paper. Then there were times of this week that made me really stop and think whether i should really be out shopping when i was sick or what... but i knew i had to if i wanted to get stuff before they jacked the prices up and all that jazz.
I have had to also watch myself in terms of what i did, said and thought... it's been an interesting week la i'd say.
YAF last nite was fun fun fun. We had games nite and jus relaxed playing games. i had to watch myself laughing coz i was coughing and laughing would induce a strain of cough that was hard to stop.. but stupid B was making it hard not to laugh when he kept making dumb jokes and stuff... it was really a good time of relaxing and fun with board games. :) we played Cranium and Bible Trivia. haha... good good. :) stayed quite late though but had a lift home.
Yeh, so here i am sitting here on a friday afternoon 1.45pm... i woke 45 minutes ago. And am still sick. will use the day to clear some stuff that i have to do like christmas cards and Heroes episodes... not to mention i managed to get a lot of movies from airy last nite. yayz. got much to watch over the holiday season... haha..
Take care people and dun think too much during this holiday period. it's not good. jus enjoy yourself.
Too tired but I'm back from SPT. it was great. Learnt alot and accomplished more.
Thank You for protecting and keeping them safe. You know how worried I was for them but You had them in Your hands and thoughts all along. Trusting in You is never futile. Welcome back Youths. YF Camp sounded fun.
On other notes, I'm getting older and older by the day. I'm not talkin bout age, mentality, mindsets, interaction with people... Everything. Less.... Fun. :)
how do i know that? well, this is pure evidence: "The blog post ends here coz i dun feel like blogging anymore... or maybe it's just coz i'm just tired." :)
I'm not going to be online from Monday [3rd Dec] till the next monday [10th Dec]. I'm going for some Section Proficiency Test... 4 days, 3 nights outfield too lor! haha sighz... call or sms me... i dun mind the cheer up. I've got my phone charger so no worries. :) Take care of yourselves too k? Esp the youth who are climbinb Mt. Belumut...
I'm posting these up coz they're such beautiful lyrics. They come from Jay Chou's latest album... and they're really sad words but yet has such a sweet heart-string tugging melody behind them all. Give the song a listen... it's on top of the tagboard. :) my fav song from the album as of now.
我们的开始是很长的电影 Wo men de kai shi shi hen chang de dian ying Our relationship is the longest movie
放映了三年 Fang ying le san nian It has been showing for three years
我票都还留着 Wo piao dou hai liu zhe I'm still keeping the ticket
冰上的芭蕾脑海中还在旋转 Bing shang de ba lei nao hai zhong hai zai xuan zhuan The ballet on ice is still revolving in my mind
望着你慢慢忘记你 Wang zhe ni man man wang ji ni Looking at yet slowly forgetting you
## 朦胧的时间 我们溜了多远 Meng long de shi jian Wo men liu le duo yuan In the haze of time How far we have skated
冰刀划的圈 圈起了谁改变 Bing dao hua de quan Quan qi le shei gai bian The circles made by the skates' blades, whoever's in it changes
如果再重来 会不会稍嫌狼狈 Ru guo zai chong lai Hui bu hui shao xian lang bei If we could start all over again, will it be a tad too awkward
爱是不是不开口才珍贵 ## Ai shi bu shi bu kai kou cai zhen gui Is love more precious when it is kept in the heart?
** 再给我两分钟 zai gei wo liang fen zhong Please give me two more minutes
让我把记忆结成冰 Rang wo ba ji yi jie cheng bing Let me freeze these memories forever
别融化了眼泪 Bie rong hua le yan lei Don't let your tears fall
你妆都花了 Ni zhuang dou hua le Smudging your makeup
要我怎麽记得 Yao wo zen me ji de How can I remember?
记得你叫我忘了吧 Ji de ni jiao wo wang le ba I remember you told me to forget
记得你叫我忘了吧 Ji de ni jiao wo wang le ba I remember you told me to forget
你说你会哭 Ni shuo ni hui ku You said you would cry
不是因为在乎 ** Bu shi yin wei zai hu But not because you care
You know. I feel really down right now. I'm just frustrated at myself and how I messed up again. How many people do I have to hurt to realize that it's not working out. Why didn't it go the way it would/should/could have?
Why do we get close to people if it only leads us to get hurt more?
The 3rd one I messed up. And this one, looks bad. I really did it this time. I messed up big time. Whatever it is, I'll get out of the way and try not to hurt anyone else anymore. I just hate it coz I didn't know. Till now. Saying sorry doesn't cut it, it doesn't even make it right.
I wonder how God takes it. His creation constantly sinning, turning away from Him and hurting Him. Yet He doesn't give up on them, on us, on me. God, I'm sorry, I bring this failure of a friendship to You. I don't want to mess it anymore. If it pleases You, mend it. If not, help me to learn from it and forgive me for it. God, I surrender it to Your hands.
Wow... this exercise was super memorable. coz i dun really have a lot of time to blog, let me cut things short... i almost died this exercise!!! haha... let me tell ya why.
We were activated at bout 1am to go repair one of the rigs [vehicles] and so we drove off in our 5 tonner [it's like a huge van.. you've seen them on the roads]
sumthing like this... anyways.. it's got this canvas covering the top rite? yeh.. so we left base camp to the deployment ground to look for the rig.. however, we encountered a really weird route which snaked upwards onto a slope that was muddy and super bumpy.. trust me, we were being thrown around inside the tonner. and it was real scary coz it's those kind of situations that you're jus waiting for the tonner to hit a rock or a ditch and either fly or tumble sideways down... i'm serious, i was legit-ly scared for my life there and then... then to make things worse a large branch [almost like a tree trunk coz it was so huge] impaled the tonner's canvas... like it stuck right thru...
wanna know the scary part? it impaled the tonner's canvas near my head.. it was like.. *psssshhht* and i looked left and there was this trunk two person's head-length away... i was like HO SHIT... hahaha... it was like damn... i could have died... so in the end we got out of the tonner and realized we were stuck coz the branch was lodged into the canvas and it didn't allow the tonner to move forward OR backward without ripping the canvas or the metal structure holding the canvas together [which was already bent]... yeh so in the end we waited in the forest trying to contact HQ to send rescue... and it was already like 2am... then when they came, they were sounding their horn and so were we but they said they couldn't hear us at all... my sgt joked that we were in some 3rd dimension... it wasn't really that funny then. haha...
so when they finally arrived, we pulled back the whole canvas sheet [5 of us] and managed to hack and kick and pull the branch till it was bent in a way [coz it was too thick to cut] and we managed to get our way thru... finally got to the deployment ground at like 3am and my sgt went to repair the vehicle while 2 of u s stayed back to clean up the tonner. there was leaves, wood, gunk from the 'accident'... then it started to rain.
-_-;
oh my gosh. so i frantically woke my fren up and we scrambled like idiotic ants-that's-gonna-drown and got the canvas pulled back... like hell lor. it was a 5 man job can!!! haha... but there was still a problem... there was a gaping tear.. so we improvised and managed to collect the rain water in a large box meant to keep our tools and spares... haha...
what an eventful night. :) anyways, exercise finally over and i got half day off to rest... managed to do quite a lot of things this morning. 2 rounds of laundry and washed the car. mwhaha see! life still goes on when the parents are out of town can! heh.
hope everyone's doing ok. the Os are over!!! yayz.. haha i hope to see EVERYONE back in YF... esp those who took their Os... it's time God came back in right? [though it'd have been good if He never left]. :)
Today was needed, much needed. Thanks for coming out of your way to meet up. Even if it was just for a few hours, today helped me get my mind off a lot of things that were chocked up since yesterday.
My little breath of fresh air, you are. At least for now, i'm still really appreciative of our frenship and the needlessness to really tell each other how much we appreciate the other's company.
Oh gosh, this is so cute. haha Random video to make ya smile. All they do is blink. awww. turn up your volume, the guy's comments are funny too.
Other than that, the week's been pretty ok... had a relatively interesting week of work. Monday and Tues, i had Gedong duty so basically i stayed in gedong overnight doing prowling duty and all.. :) then on wed, we had normal work. went down for prayer meeting at night and i must say that it was quite a nice time of prayer. didn't share anything but yet it still made going for prayer meeting worth it. the small group prayer consisted of debbie and my mum so praying was easier and sharing was more personal too. glad that shalom can still hold its' prayer meetings and though the attendance isn't fab... it's something.
thursday, we had area cleaning the whole morning and then a deeparaya celebration in jurong camp. quite cool the OJE danced an item which made me even more 'gian' to go and learn dancing... met up with my frens from jurong and it was quite a happy time with good food.
Friday, we had some sports in the morning coz it was my bigger bigger boss' unit anniversary... it's like the main body we're attached to... so i met up with some mscc frens and then after that, got a lift back from darren to pasir ris. Came home, showered, picked up the car and drove to pick alvin and reid from tampines. we headed to joo chiat to learn drums with leonard at reid's fren's jamming studio. it was cool la. whacking the drums and getting training from reid.. then we started jamming a bit too coz there was an electric and bass guitar... yeh it was pretty cool. must go and properly jam one day. :) then after that went for YAF.
YAF this week was uber interesting and i didn't want it to end. we had pastor come speak to us about certain issues and questions we, as yafers, had raised in some earlier session. We raised up stuff like the vision of the church, future leadership, the yaf's aim and goal and some stands the church has that we wanna clarify... like the KJV public reading issue, the lack of Proper In-Depth bible study.... those kinda things.. it was good to jus air our views and hear what Pastor had to say... must say that most, if not everyone, contributed and we ended up ending the session at like 12.30 or so... but i drove so no problems there. haha dropped wei-en, fern and yong jie off then came home.
Saturday, the YF breakout comm had their Flight 93 break out.. we watched a movie which really made us reflect on what would go through our minds if we knew we were about to die. and then what is important to our life? Is God in the picture and are we reaching out to those who have not yet known who Christ is and what he did for us on the cross. coz it's scary. we can go anytime. Evening, went to jessica's birthday chalet. wow. that girl has changed a bit. her hair is so nice now and she's still got her nice smile and all. it was nice seeing evelyn, cynthia, boon song, emu and goli again... poly frens i haven't seen in so long. :)
yup. i'm off to church now. so yeh. see ya people in a bit.
So this week was quite interesting. Monday to Tuesday i had work and then duty over night... it was kinda alrite. My IC was some nerdy geeky guy who didn't talk much. Though i tried to strike up many conversations, he wasn't one of many words so most of them just stopped after a while. :S haha. that's not the point la coz i cleared the duty fine and got back to camp.
Thurs, last nite, we had a deeparaya celebration at jurong camp. got to catch up with alvin for a bit coz it's the first time we've seen him since he was posted to jurong last week. Glad that he's settling down slowly. I guess i was kinda worried for him too la. new environment and a different kind of work and people he'll be mixing with. But seems like he's doing quite ok there. thank God for that. Well, just pray he'll survive the next 8 months [coz that's all he has left for Army.. spastik] and PASS HIS DRIVING. If you're reading this jia ren, you jolly well pass it before you ORD otherwise i'll hantum you. haha. :)
Food was good last nite and the performances were good too. Our OJE danced and it was really good. coz that brings me to my next point....
I'm gonna take up dancing! GASP. haha i've always kinda wanted to but never found the time or the income to do so. however, now i'm gonna seriously think bout it and go learn. which kind? well... here's a description of 2 kinds that i'm gonna check up on. :)
MTV Inspired by Justin Timberlake's smooth grooves? Ciara's heart-thumping moves? Can't get enough of those MTVs? Learn it here in this class! MTV is a music video inspired class merging Hip Hop Style with Jazz, bringing to you the hottest, coolest and newest dance styles as seen on TV! What are you waiting for? Join in and dance to the trendiest music around town!
Hip Hop I (Ongoing) Taught by Patrick Loo, you'll learn new steps and movements in each class. At a beginner's level, Patrick will go easy on you! No experience required.
yup. so cool huh? haha..
anyways, i got promoted to 3SG on wed. woots. ahha thus the extra cash to do stuff like dancing. haha... yuppers. gotta run to work now. catch ya later! take care people.
Ripped this off Sab's blog coz i think it's jus so funny. :) enjoy.
9 Things I Just Can’t Stand
1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time…. I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours?
2 People who are willing to get off their butts to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.
3 When people say “Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too”. Damn right! What good is cake if you can’t eat it?
4 When people say “it’s always the last place you look”. Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you’ve found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?
5 When people say while watching a film “did you see that?”. No Duh, I paid $9 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.
6 People who ask “Can I ask you a question?”…. Didn’t really give me a choice there, did ya?
7. When something is ‘new and improved!’ Which is it? If it’s new, then there has never been anything before it. If it’s an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn’t be new.
8 When people say “life is short”. What the hell?? Life is the longest thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that’s longer?
9 When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks “Has the bus come yet?”. If the bus came would I be standing here….?
Baby just got herself restrung. Now she sounds so sweet, so clear. The music she produces now is just floating above my head, surrounding me and entering into my ear like a teasing symphony. wow. to think changing strings could make such a big diff.
She was really depressed today when one of her strings snapped during practice. Likewise, i felt baby's pain when i tried playing chords that involved the last string. She was as empty as a jar without a cap, a flower without petals, a chord with no ending note. I couldn't take it any longer. Called off the practice [since we were ending anyways] and headed down to Tampines. Bought the strings and came home to restring her up.
now she sounds so good. i dunno whether i'll end up restringing her more and more jus to hear this fresh new sound again. but alas, as precious as baby is to me, my wallet is not as generous as my emotions. :)
ok so i'm weird. but i love my guitar. Even the guy at Yamaha said it was a real nice piece. He thot it was from Swee Lee. Take that!!! Expensive guitar owners! hah! my baby's a Cort.. and she was bought at a steal. :) NOT from Swee Lee. :)
Recently, i found a friend i've lost for a long time. Back in sec 2, i met a choir fren on a cruise ship that our schools had jointly organized.
I recall her being someone who left a deep impression on me and all these years i've tried and failed to find this friend of mine. however, facebook justified and salvaged itself in my eyes when i chanced upon my fren's profile after linking it from another friend's. What shocked me was how much she has changed since the last time i saw her. obviously but still, could the few years that we never contacted have made her who she is today, how much has affected her life and mine to have caused such a change in person. :0
nonetheless, i chatted her up and amazingly she rememebers me and it stunned me to think how much we haven't caught up on. :) only then did i think facebook was useful. :) haha... but seriously. it made me ponder and wonder whether people can really change so much. i prob wouldn't recognize her if i saw her on the street. :) so it was pretty cool getting back in contact...
on other news, i'm currently [prob not for long la] hooked on the song JENNY by The Click Five. i think it's pretty cool coz the lyrics really speak to me and heh... they have some interesting twists to it. :) but anwyays, if you dunno the song, u should know it by now coz it's on autoplay... jus above the tagboard. :)
Taken from http://www.reverendfun.com/?date=20071221
