I'm real happy.
Small things that bring you the greatest joy. Shows you what you place as important in your life. Tell others and it just sounds silly but tell it to yourself and you've got joy to last you forever.
Wonder how long I'll stay happy.
oh and congrats to all the O level people. Seems like the general feeling was that the paper was ok and some are even banking on it for their A1. wow. :)
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Rejected by SMU
It finally came in the mail. The letter that i dreaded coming. SMU replied.
Guess God has other plans for me. whatever they are, I'm gonna have to trust in Him. :)
sorry, not much mood to blog now.. but dun worry... i'm fine with it. just kinda sian that it's the second year.. which means i still dun have a place in any university, local or not. And i've got one more year. :)
Praise God that the worrying's over for now.
Guess God has other plans for me. whatever they are, I'm gonna have to trust in Him. :)
sorry, not much mood to blog now.. but dun worry... i'm fine with it. just kinda sian that it's the second year.. which means i still dun have a place in any university, local or not. And i've got one more year. :)
Praise God that the worrying's over for now.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
In need
Sometimes it just feels like you need someone. Don't ya think? this song has been running thru my head since i went to sleep and it continued when i woke. just the chorus part keeps looping. hopefully it doesn't mean anything but just thot i'd share it.
It's not supposed to feel this way.
I need you, i need you, more and more each day.
It's not supposed to hurt this way.
I need you, i need you, i need you.
It's by Avril Lavigne... who currently is rocking my Zen. Her new album is not bad.. quite good actually. if anyone wants, let me know. Yeh... going thru some stuff in my life too that really makes me wonder how much i need people or need God. How much do i miss Him and want to talk to Him as compared to wanting to talk to someone. and i guess many many times i find myself ashamed that He's not the first person that comes to mind when i'm 'lonely'.
Exco prayer meeting yesterday was great. i really felt charged up and empowered as the comm prayed and i dun really like to say this coz it sounds charismatic in nature.. but i felt God's hand and presence there yesterday. maybe the rest might have been mumbling words just to get the prayers done... maybe some cried out from their hearts earnest questions and requests to God... whatever it is, i felt like standing on the mountain and praying to Him about the things on my paper. It was an awesome feeling that lasted past the prayer. Thank God for reminders like this that help us feel close to God. Whether or not we want to, God will never leave us. it's just how far we'll walk away before realizing we still do need Him.
And i love to feel like i can pray for people. people i'm worried for because of their circumstances/feelings at the point in time/busy-ness... whatever it is, if prayer can work and if i'm praying then i can't wait for God to work in their lives and show me once again that yes, prayer does.
And if you ask me, worryin for someone is a good sign. shows that you really do care for them and that they aren't jus a face and name to you but a friend, a brother or sister. So if people worry for you, rejoice because it's just God's way of showing His love to you thru them.
And for you, please see that if i worry, it's because there's cause to worry and that i'll never see it as a burden to pray for you. That's what we do in comm and Christian living, we pray for each other. no man's an island. Let's build each other up in prayer and love knowing that God's placed all of us in our lives for these reasons. :)
May you all have a blessed rest of the week. P.s. the post under this is written about Sunday's sermon. Give it a read and comment if ya want to. :) Ciaoz!
It's not supposed to feel this way.
I need you, i need you, more and more each day.
It's not supposed to hurt this way.
I need you, i need you, i need you.
It's by Avril Lavigne... who currently is rocking my Zen. Her new album is not bad.. quite good actually. if anyone wants, let me know. Yeh... going thru some stuff in my life too that really makes me wonder how much i need people or need God. How much do i miss Him and want to talk to Him as compared to wanting to talk to someone. and i guess many many times i find myself ashamed that He's not the first person that comes to mind when i'm 'lonely'.
Exco prayer meeting yesterday was great. i really felt charged up and empowered as the comm prayed and i dun really like to say this coz it sounds charismatic in nature.. but i felt God's hand and presence there yesterday. maybe the rest might have been mumbling words just to get the prayers done... maybe some cried out from their hearts earnest questions and requests to God... whatever it is, i felt like standing on the mountain and praying to Him about the things on my paper. It was an awesome feeling that lasted past the prayer. Thank God for reminders like this that help us feel close to God. Whether or not we want to, God will never leave us. it's just how far we'll walk away before realizing we still do need Him.
And i love to feel like i can pray for people. people i'm worried for because of their circumstances/feelings at the point in time/busy-ness... whatever it is, if prayer can work and if i'm praying then i can't wait for God to work in their lives and show me once again that yes, prayer does.
And if you ask me, worryin for someone is a good sign. shows that you really do care for them and that they aren't jus a face and name to you but a friend, a brother or sister. So if people worry for you, rejoice because it's just God's way of showing His love to you thru them.
And for you, please see that if i worry, it's because there's cause to worry and that i'll never see it as a burden to pray for you. That's what we do in comm and Christian living, we pray for each other. no man's an island. Let's build each other up in prayer and love knowing that God's placed all of us in our lives for these reasons. :)
May you all have a blessed rest of the week. P.s. the post under this is written about Sunday's sermon. Give it a read and comment if ya want to. :) Ciaoz!
Monday, May 14, 2007
Reflections on Sermon: Christian's To-Do List part2
So here i am, gonna review this sunday's sermon. I think i wanna make this a permanent thing on my blog. Where i write about what i learnt or felt from the sunday sermon. Helps me also be accountable to all of you that i listened during sermon. And please, if you have something to add [i'm sure you do coz everyone has a different outlook on things]... please jus click the little COMMENTS word on the right of this entry and type away. i really do appreciate learning from you guys too.
Sermon: A Christian's "To Do" List - Part 2
Scripture: Romans 12:11-13
Speaker: Preacher Leonard Chong
Today Leonard expounded on the 2nd message in the series of a Christian's to do list. it was helpful and though i felt it was a bit unbalanced [he spent little time on point 6. and 7. but expounded a lot on point 8.] it was still quite interesting to hear what he had to say bout the points.
To do List number
6. Serve the Lord with diligence and enthusiasm
This was mainly about how we must be sincere, passionate and we must have Spiritual Ferver for Christ and ministry. Ferver in greek is BOILING. So it has that imagery of how our passion and love for the work is bubbling and not stagnant 'mosquito breeding' water. So we must check out attitude and see whether it's right. Whatever ministry we may be in, forefront or not, we must always be on fire for Him and be always trying to do our best for God.
7. Trust and depend on God in difficult times
Don't be lost in emotional highs that you lose focus on God. Like how vibrant worship can sometimes make the focus lost from God to the music or musicians sometimes. We must recognize that God is in control and that He can help you through the difficult time. Doubting God's power is the first step to not allowing Him to take control or change things. A Christian should always trust in God... especially during hard times. It's those times that really test to see if your faith is built on rock or sand.
8. Give to Christians in need
People will know that we are Christians by our love. Some aren't technically in need [monetary] but are spendthrifts or just lazy to find work or get off their butts. Those are the ones that you should be more careful with. They could be just disobedient to God or just searching for personal enjoyment without thinking long term. To enjoy the present and the now. Our attitude should be checked such that we are not giving to those in need just because we are asked to, but because we WANT to and feel the need to.
yeh, that wraps up this sunday's sermon. Hope you were blessed by it.
Sermon: A Christian's "To Do" List - Part 2
Scripture: Romans 12:11-13
Speaker: Preacher Leonard Chong
Today Leonard expounded on the 2nd message in the series of a Christian's to do list. it was helpful and though i felt it was a bit unbalanced [he spent little time on point 6. and 7. but expounded a lot on point 8.] it was still quite interesting to hear what he had to say bout the points.
To do List number
6. Serve the Lord with diligence and enthusiasm
This was mainly about how we must be sincere, passionate and we must have Spiritual Ferver for Christ and ministry. Ferver in greek is BOILING. So it has that imagery of how our passion and love for the work is bubbling and not stagnant 'mosquito breeding' water. So we must check out attitude and see whether it's right. Whatever ministry we may be in, forefront or not, we must always be on fire for Him and be always trying to do our best for God.
7. Trust and depend on God in difficult times
Don't be lost in emotional highs that you lose focus on God. Like how vibrant worship can sometimes make the focus lost from God to the music or musicians sometimes. We must recognize that God is in control and that He can help you through the difficult time. Doubting God's power is the first step to not allowing Him to take control or change things. A Christian should always trust in God... especially during hard times. It's those times that really test to see if your faith is built on rock or sand.
8. Give to Christians in need
People will know that we are Christians by our love. Some aren't technically in need [monetary] but are spendthrifts or just lazy to find work or get off their butts. Those are the ones that you should be more careful with. They could be just disobedient to God or just searching for personal enjoyment without thinking long term. To enjoy the present and the now. Our attitude should be checked such that we are not giving to those in need just because we are asked to, but because we WANT to and feel the need to.
yeh, that wraps up this sunday's sermon. Hope you were blessed by it.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Love, Actions and Boundaries
Leonard's message this Sunday was interesting. was tellin him, it was a good, timely and nice reminder for the church about being a body and loving one another. about how every Christian should have a checklist of what their character's like... their attitudes, motivations and stuff... here it is. it's also a new addition to my blog, on the left, under the tagboard.
1. Love others sincerely
2. Hate what is evil
3. Cling to what is good
4. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love
5. Honor one another above yourselves
yup. with those things in mind, a Christian should recognize their place in the big picture, the community and family of God.
well, on the first point, he spoke bout sincerity. Genuine and fake love... real love is seen by actions. fake love is jus feelings, words and emotions la... then that kinda made me think quite a bit la.. to the people who i love and love me, what kinda actions are there?
and after speaking to someone close to me, i realized that although yes, actions should be a natural outflow of loving someone, there are still things to take note of. i believe actions are an outward expression of your inward feelings and thoughts towards a person.
But what popped into my mind was that although you love someone and would want to show it thru actions, sumtimes [most of the time] there are restrictions. boundaries that you have set for yourself and this r/s that shouldn't be broken. Boundaries are important to maintain a healthy and properly appropriate situation but it still pains to hit the walls of boundary and know you're not gettin further than that. :S
But i guess it's necessary. so even as i strive to learn how to love better, it's my prayer that to those i love, you'll know i care about you. and for those who love me, thank you.. i really do appreciate and love the fact that there are some good things. :)
Yup. thot for the weekend! :P
1. Love others sincerely
2. Hate what is evil
3. Cling to what is good
4. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love
5. Honor one another above yourselves
yup. with those things in mind, a Christian should recognize their place in the big picture, the community and family of God.
well, on the first point, he spoke bout sincerity. Genuine and fake love... real love is seen by actions. fake love is jus feelings, words and emotions la... then that kinda made me think quite a bit la.. to the people who i love and love me, what kinda actions are there?
and after speaking to someone close to me, i realized that although yes, actions should be a natural outflow of loving someone, there are still things to take note of. i believe actions are an outward expression of your inward feelings and thoughts towards a person.
But what popped into my mind was that although you love someone and would want to show it thru actions, sumtimes [most of the time] there are restrictions. boundaries that you have set for yourself and this r/s that shouldn't be broken. Boundaries are important to maintain a healthy and properly appropriate situation but it still pains to hit the walls of boundary and know you're not gettin further than that. :S
But i guess it's necessary. so even as i strive to learn how to love better, it's my prayer that to those i love, you'll know i care about you. and for those who love me, thank you.. i really do appreciate and love the fact that there are some good things. :)
There are some people that you'd love to love. But you can't. 'Patience my young child' says the Lord. All you should and can do, is trust. Trust that He will love them and you just watch your boundaries. Play safe, be wise.
Yup. thot for the weekend! :P
Sunday, May 06, 2007
City Harvest Friendships
So, yesterday was an interesting day... I woke at like 11.30 i think... was able to sleep in and enjoy some much needed sleep. the past week has been a week of sleeping normal time but waking up super early to go down to Safti... so this sat's sleep was great. :) then i did some chores at home and headed down to tampines carpark to have my driving.
Needless to say, it was a blast. This time we went around the carpark a few times and then he told me to go out on the road. wah. stress la. 2nd lesson go out already. Coz he said i learn quite fast and am already one lesson ahead of normal people so he had confidence in me on the road. So i went on the road and jus listened to him all the way. I must say the first few times wasn't as stressed as i thot, but still tense la. he said that i was gripping the steering wheel real tight. could see my veins and all on my arms... LOLZ. haha... but after driving for a while, i got more and more used to it and my confidence level surely built up as i drove and experienced more and more 'unexpected' stuff like light changes and people cutting.
I even saw an accident. There was this cab that was waiting to filter into my lane but since i was on the main road, everyone knows i had the right of way. so i started to pick up past him but before i passed him, i saw another taxi come from behind him and he didn't slow down enough so he whacked the first taxi in the back. wah! ahha. i was like OH MY! and Vincent [instructor] jus said, ah see. he didn't slow down enough. that's why we ask you to always slow down at junctions, you never know what might happen. You hit people's back dun need to say one, sure lose.
HAHA... so it was like. woah. right there in front of me lor. lolz. hope there wasn't much problems. anyways... after that, i drove past home and he took over to drive me to expo... it was a great lesson and once again, i can't wait for the next lesson. ahha.. driving's a blast. really.
after that, met up with jiamin, qiang and jodi at the expo and we made our way to hall 8 for
Heh... decided to go this week since there wasn't yf. these 3 saturdays will be a time where i can go around and visit other churches. look see for myself what they're like and experience how they worship our Almighty Father. It was a fun blessed experience at CHC la i guess. The last time i went was when i was a real young teen like sec 1? and it was scary la. the whole speaking in tongues and how they approached us and tried to get our contact details and all.. so this time, i told myself not to go with any stigmas and just try to enjoy the worship service and message. It turned out much better than the past exp i had with chc. The worship songs they picked were all new to me yet i still was able to pick them up and sing along praising God. i felt quite blessed and edified by the songs. how they sing and repeat over and over again helped to peel layer and layer off my hardened heart and to show me how God loves me and should be first place in my life. So worship was great [minus the speaking in tongues part]...
Then after service, i met up with Reid and his Cell Group for dinner. He had to go for dinner so he dumped me with his fren Pearly to take care of me. We headed down to the airport for dinner and I was able to fellowship with them. it was fun getting to know other Christians other than CF and Church... nice bunch of people though i only really got to speak much with Pearly and some others. Met some guys from his cell that are in the army and all... quite interestin to chat with them too. haha army talk is always entertaining for a while. :)
Yup, then that spastik reid had to leave so i decided to go with him though i did kinda wanna stay. But it's ok. another time if God allows me to fellowship with them. :) I knew i still had to go home and prepare for my own church service the next day. :) but this saturday helped me to see how a Christian still has many brothers and sisters around in other churches too... :) Friendships aren't restricted by location or denominations. That's what i feel la. :)
Next Saturday: Riverlife! Who's interested in following? Tee hee.
Needless to say, it was a blast. This time we went around the carpark a few times and then he told me to go out on the road. wah. stress la. 2nd lesson go out already. Coz he said i learn quite fast and am already one lesson ahead of normal people so he had confidence in me on the road. So i went on the road and jus listened to him all the way. I must say the first few times wasn't as stressed as i thot, but still tense la. he said that i was gripping the steering wheel real tight. could see my veins and all on my arms... LOLZ. haha... but after driving for a while, i got more and more used to it and my confidence level surely built up as i drove and experienced more and more 'unexpected' stuff like light changes and people cutting.
I even saw an accident. There was this cab that was waiting to filter into my lane but since i was on the main road, everyone knows i had the right of way. so i started to pick up past him but before i passed him, i saw another taxi come from behind him and he didn't slow down enough so he whacked the first taxi in the back. wah! ahha. i was like OH MY! and Vincent [instructor] jus said, ah see. he didn't slow down enough. that's why we ask you to always slow down at junctions, you never know what might happen. You hit people's back dun need to say one, sure lose.
HAHA... so it was like. woah. right there in front of me lor. lolz. hope there wasn't much problems. anyways... after that, i drove past home and he took over to drive me to expo... it was a great lesson and once again, i can't wait for the next lesson. ahha.. driving's a blast. really.
after that, met up with jiamin, qiang and jodi at the expo and we made our way to hall 8 for
Heh... decided to go this week since there wasn't yf. these 3 saturdays will be a time where i can go around and visit other churches. look see for myself what they're like and experience how they worship our Almighty Father. It was a fun blessed experience at CHC la i guess. The last time i went was when i was a real young teen like sec 1? and it was scary la. the whole speaking in tongues and how they approached us and tried to get our contact details and all.. so this time, i told myself not to go with any stigmas and just try to enjoy the worship service and message. It turned out much better than the past exp i had with chc. The worship songs they picked were all new to me yet i still was able to pick them up and sing along praising God. i felt quite blessed and edified by the songs. how they sing and repeat over and over again helped to peel layer and layer off my hardened heart and to show me how God loves me and should be first place in my life. So worship was great [minus the speaking in tongues part]...
Then after service, i met up with Reid and his Cell Group for dinner. He had to go for dinner so he dumped me with his fren Pearly to take care of me. We headed down to the airport for dinner and I was able to fellowship with them. it was fun getting to know other Christians other than CF and Church... nice bunch of people though i only really got to speak much with Pearly and some others. Met some guys from his cell that are in the army and all... quite interestin to chat with them too. haha army talk is always entertaining for a while. :)
Yup, then that spastik reid had to leave so i decided to go with him though i did kinda wanna stay. But it's ok. another time if God allows me to fellowship with them. :) I knew i still had to go home and prepare for my own church service the next day. :) but this saturday helped me to see how a Christian still has many brothers and sisters around in other churches too... :) Friendships aren't restricted by location or denominations. That's what i feel la. :)
Next Saturday: Riverlife! Who's interested in following? Tee hee.
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Youth Sunday + Driving
*edited. added something below.*
it's been a week since i've updated this la. Ohmyzen... anyways, it's been an ok week... weekend rawked too. didn't do much for saturday coz i was attached to jurong for army stuff.. what to do? :) anyways, hope it'll all pay off and i expect to have gotten an off day for that saturday.
then went down to church early early on sunday coz it was youth sunday and i was still practicing my item la.. will put up the video of it when i get the video. :) it was fun to see the youths serving in areas that they dun really get to.. like ushering and refreshments... so thank God for their willing hearts and for puttin in 110% in what they did.. the special items were nice and meaningful too.. Sean's song was written well and deb tan's singing with jason's playing was absolut great. :P then after that, i went to have my first driving lesson with Vincent...
wah i tell you, it was scary in the sense that it was in a bad place, got some reason for that but not impt for now. :) but it was like, taking control of the car la.. scary stuff coz you can do anything wrong and buang the car can. :) but he was very thorough and gave me a lot of confidence thru his words and actions. so i thank God for a patient man like him.
he told me that i learn quite fast and from the way he spoke, could tell that he was quite glad that i learn the ropes pretty easily too. yayz. haha. managed to clear one and a half lessons on that first day apparently so he said that next lesson should be no problem and we'll go on the road. i was like. WAD?!?!? on the road?!? me?? no la.. haha then he was like, dun worry, he'll be there and stuff. but still. scary la. :)
i must say, there are many many things to think bout when driving.. esp for manual car la. how to change gear, stop, start, all that jazz. but i'm glad i'm learning. really enjoyed the lesson and i can't wait to start my second lesson. ohmyzen, still have to wait for one more week. next lesson's on saturday. seeing if i can push it earlier so i can visit City Harvest in the afternoon for their youth service. :) yayz. that should be fun if i can go for it.
today, a few of the exco members met up for island creamery. nice can. :) yummies.. managed to try a fav of cheryl's... teh tarik. and i was blown away at how they managed to capture the taste into the ice cream. i think it's wonderful how they can get that distinct singaporean taste into their ice cream... genius. :) But of course, i'm sorry... P.Hitam still rawks my socks off. :) though, it melts fast. haha... hung around jus chatting and relaxing for quite a while. haven't done that with this bunch in a long time so i was glad that we were able to spend some quality time with unofficial business. :) didn't need to get agenda done or what la.. so it was nice jus sharing lives. :)
then headed down to send hensley off at pasir ris. so funny. all the chao recruits. :) reminded me of my time when i was booking in too. :) hope he has a fun time coz the army life in tekong is really fun. with buddies and all. :) after that, headed to supper at Changi Village. oh my... hokkien mee's so nice canzzz. hahah yayz. so satisfied. :)
so here i am, sitting at home... relaxing on a tues nite.. at 9.40pm. wowz. i've got so much time till i sleep. i love this day. may day rawks. :)
so who cares that i have to go jurong for the rest of this week, i count it all joy... no workshop, no coveralls, no falling in stress.. :) jus relaxing fun at the event. :) cool stuff huh? :) yayz.
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something happened today that made me worried for a fren of mine. I was worried for safety as i didn't get a reply to my message and all la. Felt quite scared that something might have happened. Thank God that it was all ok and that it was just because the handphone was switched off... but still... it made me realize 2 small things.
1. I have to trust God more. Praying and asking God for peace about the whole situation made me see that even in small things, i gotta learn to trust God more. As hard as it is considering how i'm not in control of the situation and that my mind was playing all these possible scenarios out, i should shut it all out and just keep relying on God to give peace.
2. I realized that i cared more than i thot for this fren of mine. small thing like that already made me worry like that. mmm wonder if that's a good thing. but yeh, small matter turned not so small in my mind. Just glad nothing happened and that it was all in my head.
just once more, stop saying sorry canz. :) thank God that it's all over and it's nothing much la.
yarh. that's bout it. wanted to blog bout it la coz life's short and you forget things. i do. :) glad everything's fine nonetheless.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Sway Day
Woah. yesterday was a day to remember can. haha.. let me tell ya all bout it. :) last nite, i was online and then Justin came and asked if i was going to send Debbie off... then i checked with James... haha what time the flight is and all la... so then finally at 12.30am, i decided ok, why not... so ended up sleeping at 1 after closing all my chats and all.
so i slept at 1 and woke at 3. groggy but excited. haha so went down to the guard house and met up with jiamin. Drove down to the airport with him and qiang and met up with the yeos... then waited around for her to check in and have her briefings... then went to breakfast at BK.... sent her off and then headed down to Jln Kayu for breakfast with the 2 guys... then headed off to work. a full day of work... with 2 hours of sleep. lol.
anyways, at about 2plus, i went to wash my hands in anticipation of the tea break at 3... after washing my hands, i was walkin off then kenna bird shit. yeh, my workshop has a lot of birds... anyways, i was like. WAH LAU... so went to clean off my coveralls... then when i was drying my specs, it snapped into 2. pengz... super sway la... so i had to go thru the rest of the day blind... pengz... got home blind and changed my specs to my transition ones. haiz.... so sway.
yup, account of the day over. ahha... okok, gotta rush off for work now. :) sighz.
All the best for the Sec 4s who are taking middies... they're evil exams.. but God's with you. :)
so i slept at 1 and woke at 3. groggy but excited. haha so went down to the guard house and met up with jiamin. Drove down to the airport with him and qiang and met up with the yeos... then waited around for her to check in and have her briefings... then went to breakfast at BK.... sent her off and then headed down to Jln Kayu for breakfast with the 2 guys... then headed off to work. a full day of work... with 2 hours of sleep. lol.
anyways, at about 2plus, i went to wash my hands in anticipation of the tea break at 3... after washing my hands, i was walkin off then kenna bird shit. yeh, my workshop has a lot of birds... anyways, i was like. WAH LAU... so went to clean off my coveralls... then when i was drying my specs, it snapped into 2. pengz... super sway la... so i had to go thru the rest of the day blind... pengz... got home blind and changed my specs to my transition ones. haiz.... so sway.
yup, account of the day over. ahha... okok, gotta rush off for work now. :) sighz.
All the best for the Sec 4s who are taking middies... they're evil exams.. but God's with you. :)
Sunday, April 22, 2007
寂寞 - Loneliness
Sometimes i can get lost in chinese songs. I think they sing of really nice things. i've posted something about that before la. bout how English songs are just warped and all. So here i am, enjoying what the chinese songs are all about. when i search for the lyrics and read them [yes, i CAN read chinese... mostly]... i really totally understand the song that much better. :) so much nicer la. 了解更好
But then again, half the time, i can only catch half of what they're singing coz by the time i process what they said, they're already singing the next verse. haha... but it's still nice when i catch it la. :)
我超喜歡你
i must attribute my love for chinese songs to my time in poly. when we used to go play pool or just sit in the lab and listen to the chinese music pouring from each other's speakers. :) it was fun and nice. thank God for experiences like that. breaks me out of my comfort zone and stuff. :)
but anyways, recently been having lonely thots. not good. haha... but i guess it reminds me that God made me relational and even in life itself, we all seek to be loved or to love others. 情感 Coz God made me that way and i'm made in the image of God. :)
神 就 照 着 自 己 的 形 像 造 人
yup yup. :) interesting how we were chosen as His creation to bear His image and to feel the things He feels... like lonliness. i wonder if God ever felt that, but Jesus did. :) Relational. exactly what i just spoke bout. wonderful.
But then again, half the time, i can only catch half of what they're singing coz by the time i process what they said, they're already singing the next verse. haha... but it's still nice when i catch it la. :)
我超喜歡你
i must attribute my love for chinese songs to my time in poly. when we used to go play pool or just sit in the lab and listen to the chinese music pouring from each other's speakers. :) it was fun and nice. thank God for experiences like that. breaks me out of my comfort zone and stuff. :)
but anyways, recently been having lonely thots. not good. haha... but i guess it reminds me that God made me relational and even in life itself, we all seek to be loved or to love others. 情感 Coz God made me that way and i'm made in the image of God. :)
神 就 照 着 自 己 的 形 像 造 人
yup yup. :) interesting how we were chosen as His creation to bear His image and to feel the things He feels... like lonliness. i wonder if God ever felt that, but Jesus did. :) Relational. exactly what i just spoke bout. wonderful.
Seeing Double?
how cool is this? Thanks to my friend who photoedited it. haha... i think it's done really well coz the lighting and everything's done real good. no wonder he's working where he's working. dunno if i can say where that is... ahha you never know how confidential it is la. :) Yup... so thanks for the cute photo and good laugh.
p.s. i found some real old photos of some people who might not want their photos to be revealed. MWHAHA... i shall do some editing of my own. :) look out for the post soon. hahaha
Friday, April 20, 2007
Just popping by
the photo got removed from blogger or sumthing. -.-thots are just slowly filling my head these few days la. sian. but at least i'm getting them out of my system nowadays as compared to keepin them inside. finally a small outlet. :) yarhz... anyways, real glad the weekend's here la. coz of last weekend, i've been dying to see the yf again. :) so whee. haha
p.s. i like the cute little girl in that pic above. so schweet.
thank God, i passed my Advance Theory... just one more final step till i drive legally on the road. :)
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Changing Times, Timely Change
It's funny isn't it? How people can change so much in 6 years. I made Eunice take this recent shot with me because I wanted to show how different things can be with a short span of time. The environment still stays roughly the same, but the people that move in and out of their doors can change so much.
Back in 2001, i was 15 years old. that's merely Sec 3... and now look at me.
But it's coz of all the people around me that have made me who i am today. The older leaders that have guided me and watched me grow have inspired me and supported me all these years. So thanks to those who played a part and still play that same part... To Eunice too... thanks for putting up with me... mwhahah... :)
Where will you be in the next 5-6 years? Who will you be?
Saturday, April 14, 2007
It would have been enough
It would have been enough
All you needed to do was to speak a word from heaven,
not even left your throne and majesty.
You didn't need to come to earth because from heaven,
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to be born in a manger
in the stink, filth, humiliation and hay as your bed
You could chosen a hospital or proper housing.
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to live as a carpenter
to toil and labour with the hands that one day would be pierced
You could have lived the life of an average man.
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to go around entertaining everyone
Healing, blessing, eating with them.
You could just have let your disciples do the mundane work
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to touch the untouchable, the leper
To reach down, pick him and up wipe his eyes
You could have just spoken sight into his glazed eyes
it would have been enough
You didn't need to be tried and beaten
to suffer the thorns, the whips, the flogging.
You could have just been put to death straight.
it would have been enough
You didn't need to be beaten beyond recognition
to carry that heavy wooden cross till you fell from it's load
you could have just died another way
it would have been enough
You didn't need to be mocked by the people you came for
to be spat on, boo-ed, jeered at and laughed at.
You could silence them all just by a look of your glory.
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to forgive your captors
neither did the thief on the cross earn his place in heaven
You could have just smiled to him.
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to stay dead 3 days
In that cold dark tomb, wrapped in death cloth.
You could have just walked out of the tomb straight away.
You could have stepped out of death into life
it would have been enough.
But when we consider the prophecies,
the truths we know and the things He accomplished.
Although it never makes any sense to us,
we know that it's because if He didn't do all that
it wouldn't have been enough.
All you needed to do was to speak a word from heaven,
not even left your throne and majesty.
You didn't need to come to earth because from heaven,
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to be born in a manger
in the stink, filth, humiliation and hay as your bed
You could chosen a hospital or proper housing.
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to live as a carpenter
to toil and labour with the hands that one day would be pierced
You could have lived the life of an average man.
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to go around entertaining everyone
Healing, blessing, eating with them.
You could just have let your disciples do the mundane work
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to touch the untouchable, the leper
To reach down, pick him and up wipe his eyes
You could have just spoken sight into his glazed eyes
it would have been enough
You didn't need to be tried and beaten
to suffer the thorns, the whips, the flogging.
You could have just been put to death straight.
it would have been enough
You didn't need to be beaten beyond recognition
to carry that heavy wooden cross till you fell from it's load
you could have just died another way
it would have been enough
You didn't need to be mocked by the people you came for
to be spat on, boo-ed, jeered at and laughed at.
You could silence them all just by a look of your glory.
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to forgive your captors
neither did the thief on the cross earn his place in heaven
You could have just smiled to him.
it would have been enough.
You didn't need to stay dead 3 days
In that cold dark tomb, wrapped in death cloth.
You could have just walked out of the tomb straight away.
You could have stepped out of death into life
it would have been enough.
But when we consider the prophecies,
the truths we know and the things He accomplished.
Although it never makes any sense to us,
we know that it's because if He didn't do all that
it wouldn't have been enough.
My brothers and sisters, as you read this, i pray you considered the immense pain, shame and suffering our Lord Jesus Christ endured for you. Because although Good Friday and Easter comes once a year... it doesn't mean that we should stop remembering the sacrifices that He made for us. We often think of it as how... oh yeh, He died for us. but it's so much more than that. I pray you just stop whatever you're doing now... take a short break of 2 minutes and jus consider how we constantly and habitually never give back anything to Him. We make such a big fuss over a small sacrifice and expect the world from Him. When in reality, He gave us everything we can never repay. All He asks from us is that we love Him. that's all. love him, it would be enough.
Stuck at home
well well well. :)
guess what this poor sickly boy is doing on a good saturday? when he should be in church enjoying fellowship with his brothers and sisters at YF?
he's home... resting and resting... sigh. i'm like MIRESABLE!!! [lol. i love that word]... sigh.. i wish i could have been there at YF since it's Kenneth's MinTs and i mean, who wants to miss yf... ANY yf is still a good time to spend with each other rite?
but hey, since i'm home and dun wanna risk my chances of going to service tomolo, i better make good use of the time i'm home.
Current Status:
but today i still wasn't good. so to avoid the possibility of infecting people and getting worse thus having to miss service tomolo, i decided [not too hard to decide coz of the circumstances] to miss one week of yf...
gosh... i never miss yf. at 3pm i was like groaning can... i was like WAAAAA.... hahaha... spastik. :) now you'll know how much more sian and miserable i'll be if i miss tml's service. i'd jus jump off my home... ummm my 3 storey home... wait, that won't kill me... wargh.... haha
guess what this poor sickly boy is doing on a good saturday? when he should be in church enjoying fellowship with his brothers and sisters at YF?
he's home... resting and resting... sigh. i'm like MIRESABLE!!! [lol. i love that word]... sigh.. i wish i could have been there at YF since it's Kenneth's MinTs and i mean, who wants to miss yf... ANY yf is still a good time to spend with each other rite?
but hey, since i'm home and dun wanna risk my chances of going to service tomolo, i better make good use of the time i'm home.
Current Status:
- Headaches... esp when i move around.
- Coughing a bit... but it's the least of the sickness i think
- achey body [oh this is the worst coz every position you sit/lie in isn't comfortable
- Perspire whenever i dun have a fan pointed at me
- Get giddy when i stand up or walk around.
- Ultimately, weak...
but today i still wasn't good. so to avoid the possibility of infecting people and getting worse thus having to miss service tomolo, i decided [not too hard to decide coz of the circumstances] to miss one week of yf...
gosh... i never miss yf. at 3pm i was like groaning can... i was like WAAAAA.... hahaha... spastik. :) now you'll know how much more sian and miserable i'll be if i miss tml's service. i'd jus jump off my home... ummm my 3 storey home... wait, that won't kill me... wargh.... haha
Friday, April 13, 2007
Back and... kicking
urghhh arghhh... that's the only audible words that i can make out now... i'm very sick with flu, fever. headache, cough, achy body.... but mainly what's buggin me is the headache and nose that jus pours and pours. if i had a camera, i'd take a pic of the dustbin. full of tissue lor. lol.
today was late for CO parade. ended up cabbing there. didn't get in trouble but i hate to 'stand out' in the army. never good one. haha... so yeh, managed to survive till after parade. then the morning medicine wore off.
OH! that reminds me. brb. gotta pop my pills... MEDICINAL PILLS THAT IS. :P what were you thinkin? aiyoh.
ok. done my pills. gosh. i'm like energy-less now la. i think i wanna go lie down. hopefully i'll wake up. HAHAH jus kidding.
prayin hard i'll see you and you and everyone of you at yf tml.
today was late for CO parade. ended up cabbing there. didn't get in trouble but i hate to 'stand out' in the army. never good one. haha... so yeh, managed to survive till after parade. then the morning medicine wore off.
OH! that reminds me. brb. gotta pop my pills... MEDICINAL PILLS THAT IS. :P what were you thinkin? aiyoh.
ok. done my pills. gosh. i'm like energy-less now la. i think i wanna go lie down. hopefully i'll wake up. HAHAH jus kidding.
prayin hard i'll see you and you and everyone of you at yf tml.
Sorry for promising.
i know i promised. but i'm sorry. it's gotta wait for a little bit more. i'm down with flu, cough and generally a lousy miserable feeling... sorry.
duty was great though. watched tv the whole time. :)
duty was great though. watched tv the whole time. :)
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Promises
I promise a post after i come back from Sungei Gedong. Going there for duty... Tues-wed so won't be home la. but i'll apparently have LOADS of time there to do anything i want, so i shall blog [the primitive way] on a piece of paper and then transfer it online later when i get home on wed nite.
sorry for the lack of posts and stuff.. jus been a bit off sorts recently and didn't wanna blog coz i was lazy. but i'll get an entry done real soon k? :)
and now, a small preview of my post that will soon be hitting your computer screens soon.
sorry for the lack of posts and stuff.. jus been a bit off sorts recently and didn't wanna blog coz i was lazy. but i'll get an entry done real soon k? :)
and now, a small preview of my post that will soon be hitting your computer screens soon.
"Easter: the only reason why we live is coz He did and still does."
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Promoted
Guess who's promoted? :)
Yesterday ended really well with my name being read out in the announcements page... Private Alvin, Private Terry, Private Joel blah blah blah... has been promoted to Lance Corporal with effect from 1st April. :P
MWAHAHA yay yay yay. first sew-on rank... gotta go sew the rank onto my uniforms now. wowz. the feeling is great even though the pay only increases by like wad? $40 to $390? haha nvm la.. it's still sumthing. :)
So nick, dun you dare call me private tan anymore... mwhaha. It's LCP Joel to you! :P
Yesterday ended really well with my name being read out in the announcements page... Private Alvin, Private Terry, Private Joel blah blah blah... has been promoted to Lance Corporal with effect from 1st April. :P
MWAHAHA yay yay yay. first sew-on rank... gotta go sew the rank onto my uniforms now. wowz. the feeling is great even though the pay only increases by like wad? $40 to $390? haha nvm la.. it's still sumthing. :)
So nick, dun you dare call me private tan anymore... mwhaha. It's LCP Joel to you! :P
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
专属天使
专属天使 - TANK
我不会怪你 对我的伪装
wu bu hui guai ni, dui wo de wei zhuang
I won't blame you for bluffing me
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
tian shi zai ren jian shi gai chang hao chi bang
Angel should cover up their wings in the mortal world
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
ren men yu chun lu mang, er ni xian xi shan liang
Humans are slow to think and harsh
whereas you are kind hearted
怎能让你 为了我被碰伤
zhen neng rang ni wei le wo bei peng shang
How can I let you get hurt just because of me?
小小的手掌 厚厚的温暖
xiao xiao de shou zhang, hou hou de wen nuan
the small small palm, the thickness of warmth
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
ni zong neng ping fu wo bu an de ye wan
you always calm the uneasiness of my heart at night
不敢想的梦想 透过你的眼光
bu gan xiang de meng xiang, tou guo ni de yan guang
the dream that i ran away from, when i look into your eyes
我才看见 它原来在前方
wo cai kan jian, ta yuan lai zai qian fang
i saw that my dream is just infront
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
mei you shui neng ba ni qiang li wo shen pang
no one can take you away from my side
你是我的 专属天使
ni shi wo de zhuan shu tian shi
you're my personal angel
唯我能独占
wei wo neng du zhan
that belongs to only me
没有谁能取代你在我心上
mei you shui neng qu dai ni zai wo xin shang
no one can replace you in my heart
拥有一个 专属天使
yong you yi ge zhuan shu tian shi
having a personal angel
我哪里还需要 别的愿望
wo na li hai xu ya bie de yuan wang
what kind of other wishes i can have?
小小的手掌 大大的力量
xiao xiao de shou zhang, da da de li liang
a small small palm yet with a big strength
我一定也会 像你一样飞翔
wo yi ding ye hui xiang ni yi yang fei xiang
i will soar just like you
你想去的地方 就是我的方向
ni xiang qu de di fang, jiu shi wo de fang xiang
where you wanna go, is where i'll go to
有我保护 笑容尽管灿烂
you wo bao hu, xiao rong jing guan can lan
having your protection, my smiles are as bright as the sun
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
mei you shui neng ba ni qiang li wo shen pang
no one can take you away from my side
你是我的 专属天使
ni shi wo de zhuan shu tian shi
you're my personal angel
唯我能独占
wei wo neng du zhan
that belongs to only me
没有谁能取代你在我心上
mei you shui neng qu dai ni zai wo xin shang
no one can replace you in my heart
拥有一个 专属天使
yong you yi ge zhuan shu tian shi
having a personal angel
我哪里还需要 别的愿望
wo na li hai xu yao bie de yuan wang
what kind of other wishes i can have?
要不是你出现
yao bu shi ni chu xian
If it wasn't you that appear
我一定还在沉睡
wo yi ding hai zai cheng shui
i would have been still asleep
绝望的以为 生命只有黑夜
jue wang de yi wei, shen ming zhi you hei ye
I thought that life revolves only around the night
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
mei you shui neng ba ni qiang li wo shen pang
no one can take you away from my side
你是我的 专属天使
ni shi wo de zhuan shu tian shi
you're my personal angel
唯我能独占
wei wo neng du zhan
that belongs to only me
没有谁能取代你在我心上
mei you shui neng qu dai ni zai wo xin shang
no one can replace you in my heart
拥有一个 专属天使
yong you yi ge zhuan shu tian shi
having a personal angel
我哪里还需要 别的愿望
wo na li hai xu yao, bie de yuan wang
what kind of other wishes i can have?
although i think 专属天使 should mean more like Guardian Angel... or like, exclusive angel... my personal angel also can la... i suppose. haha
aren't the lyrics just so nice? hai. that's why i love chinese songs so much more than those silly dumb english songs that just sing about sex and sex and more sex... and of course love is synonymous with sex... haiz.. what to do when society is so... messed up? turn to chinese songs that sing about love and angels being by your side giving you a reason to live on and not want anything.
*meltz*
hope you enjoyed it... why i love this song and listen to it at least once a day? it's coz it's taken from a Taiwanese drama i'm hopelessly hooked on... Hana Kimi. :P you can find it on Youtube. :P Ciaoz!
我不会怪你 对我的伪装
wu bu hui guai ni, dui wo de wei zhuang
I won't blame you for bluffing me
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
tian shi zai ren jian shi gai chang hao chi bang
Angel should cover up their wings in the mortal world
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
ren men yu chun lu mang, er ni xian xi shan liang
Humans are slow to think and harsh
whereas you are kind hearted
怎能让你 为了我被碰伤
zhen neng rang ni wei le wo bei peng shang
How can I let you get hurt just because of me?
小小的手掌 厚厚的温暖
xiao xiao de shou zhang, hou hou de wen nuan
the small small palm, the thickness of warmth
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
ni zong neng ping fu wo bu an de ye wan
you always calm the uneasiness of my heart at night
不敢想的梦想 透过你的眼光
bu gan xiang de meng xiang, tou guo ni de yan guang
the dream that i ran away from, when i look into your eyes
我才看见 它原来在前方
wo cai kan jian, ta yuan lai zai qian fang
i saw that my dream is just infront
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
mei you shui neng ba ni qiang li wo shen pang
no one can take you away from my side
你是我的 专属天使
ni shi wo de zhuan shu tian shi
you're my personal angel
唯我能独占
wei wo neng du zhan
that belongs to only me
没有谁能取代你在我心上
mei you shui neng qu dai ni zai wo xin shang
no one can replace you in my heart
拥有一个 专属天使
yong you yi ge zhuan shu tian shi
having a personal angel
我哪里还需要 别的愿望
wo na li hai xu ya bie de yuan wang
what kind of other wishes i can have?
小小的手掌 大大的力量
xiao xiao de shou zhang, da da de li liang
a small small palm yet with a big strength
我一定也会 像你一样飞翔
wo yi ding ye hui xiang ni yi yang fei xiang
i will soar just like you
你想去的地方 就是我的方向
ni xiang qu de di fang, jiu shi wo de fang xiang
where you wanna go, is where i'll go to
有我保护 笑容尽管灿烂
you wo bao hu, xiao rong jing guan can lan
having your protection, my smiles are as bright as the sun
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
mei you shui neng ba ni qiang li wo shen pang
no one can take you away from my side
你是我的 专属天使
ni shi wo de zhuan shu tian shi
you're my personal angel
唯我能独占
wei wo neng du zhan
that belongs to only me
没有谁能取代你在我心上
mei you shui neng qu dai ni zai wo xin shang
no one can replace you in my heart
拥有一个 专属天使
yong you yi ge zhuan shu tian shi
having a personal angel
我哪里还需要 别的愿望
wo na li hai xu yao bie de yuan wang
what kind of other wishes i can have?
要不是你出现
yao bu shi ni chu xian
If it wasn't you that appear
我一定还在沉睡
wo yi ding hai zai cheng shui
i would have been still asleep
绝望的以为 生命只有黑夜
jue wang de yi wei, shen ming zhi you hei ye
I thought that life revolves only around the night
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
mei you shui neng ba ni qiang li wo shen pang
no one can take you away from my side
你是我的 专属天使
ni shi wo de zhuan shu tian shi
you're my personal angel
唯我能独占
wei wo neng du zhan
that belongs to only me
没有谁能取代你在我心上
mei you shui neng qu dai ni zai wo xin shang
no one can replace you in my heart
拥有一个 专属天使
yong you yi ge zhuan shu tian shi
having a personal angel
我哪里还需要 别的愿望
wo na li hai xu yao, bie de yuan wang
what kind of other wishes i can have?
although i think 专属天使 should mean more like Guardian Angel... or like, exclusive angel... my personal angel also can la... i suppose. haha
aren't the lyrics just so nice? hai. that's why i love chinese songs so much more than those silly dumb english songs that just sing about sex and sex and more sex... and of course love is synonymous with sex... haiz.. what to do when society is so... messed up? turn to chinese songs that sing about love and angels being by your side giving you a reason to live on and not want anything.
*meltz*
hope you enjoyed it... why i love this song and listen to it at least once a day? it's coz it's taken from a Taiwanese drama i'm hopelessly hooked on... Hana Kimi. :P you can find it on Youtube. :P Ciaoz!
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