Suppose

Suppose it were your birthday

And all your friends would come,

And gather round your fireplace

There in your happy home.

They come with smiles and gladness,

And bring their presents too.

But when they start to share them,

There's not a one for you.

They give them to each other,

A grand and costly lot.

But for the guest of honor,

They somehow just forgot.

You say such things don't happen,

Nor should it ever be;

It seems too crude and cruel,

For folks like you and me.

But friend, have you considered,

Just this is what men do?

Not, of course, to humans,

But of our Lord, its true.

We celebrate His birthday

With all our pomp and style;

But give to one another

And grieve Him all the while.

'Tis Christ we claim to honor

At this glad Christmastime;

Don't spend on friends the dollars

And give Him just a dime.

To give to one another

Indeed is very nice;

But best of all to Jesus,

For Him let's sacrifice.

His cause too long has suffered

By thoughtless, selfish men,

Let's bring to Christ the firstfruits,

And give our best to Him

--Fred D. Jarvis

Coz You Had a Bad Day

REAL REAL bad day for me today. here's a summary. :)

Started my day good. woke early enuf, left the house and got to the bus stop and all early. got the nice bus and was on my way to camp with enuf time to be early. and then....

i got on my bus. then i was eating my breakfast and dozing off in my bus.
then when i woke, i realized my bread was on the floor. and it was in a puddle of water on the bus floor.

so i lost my breakfast. never mind...

then i dozed off again and missed my stop. ended up at woodlands interchange. instead of taking the same bus back coz it's 20 minutes and i was already late for reportin to camp, i decided to try taking a cab.

so walked out and tried to hail a cab in the pouring rain for half an hour to no avail.
got so so stressed and decided to try 3 cab companies... 1 said no cabs. 2 were constantly engaged. so i decided that i was dead beyond help.

so i went to take the bus at the interchange.
and after it finally came, the bus left the interchange, made one round and came back coz the aircon spoilt so we all had to get off the bus and wait for the next one... at the same interchange stop. so we all got off and waited for the 'replacement' bus.

finally reached camp and it was pouring and all. huge puddles of water that went up to my ankles [and i'm not exaggerating]...
but thankfully i was wearing my boots so although it was all soaked, it wasn't THAT bad.

But hey, God was with me all the way. it was a bad day, but still, it's made by God so thank God for it. :)

Post camp post

The camp has finally come to a close and it's been a great 5 days of learning, fun and fellowship that the youth have been able to experience. The camp comm is fired up about the whole experience and have surely learnt a lot.

Although i wasn't able to go for the whole camp. i probably only went for 40% of the camp, it still spoke to me and it was sumthing i wouldn't have missed for the world. the Lord worked out as much as was given to me and i was really blessed to go for quite a lot of the camp actually.. Let's look at the schedule of events. Monday - Friday i had to be in army camp from 7am to 5.30pm daily.

Monday - Came to camp at 7pm, stayed over and woke the next morning at 5am to leave for army.
Tuesday - Got called for last minute guard duty so had to stay over in army camp till wed afternoon.
Wednesday - Due to me being called for duty last nite, i was given afternoon off. reached church at 2pm and spent the whole day there, went home to sleep.
Thursday - Last day in OETI so we had afternoon off. cabbed to church and reached at 1.30pm. Stayed over for funnite and woke up the next morning cabbing to boon lay since dinesh had the company paying for him.

So overall, i actually ended up in camp more than i expected and God really showed me how He can use the bad stuff to bring about good. really thank God for helping me be at the camp as much as He did. more than i could ever have asked for coz the days He let me go, those were the days that were important. thank God for that.

So yeh, the camp was a blast. really impressed with the camp comm and zhi yuan. i practically dumped everything to them and said, "if you need me, call me"... i only got like 1 call and it was about some other stuff. :) so i'm really glad everything went well and that the camp comm really did a fantastically fantabulous job la. i was really hoping that nuthing would go wrong and dishearten them but God had a bigger plan for each and every one of them.

The 'Batman and Robin' board was really good. thankful for it. much much love goes out to those who wrote/gave me stuff... really touched by some of the letters and gestures. :) when i came back on wednesday, they were all complaining how my cup had a plastic bag attached to it coz there was no more space... wah, i was so touched and moved that there was so much things for me to clear. feel real bad actually coz i didn't want to show that kinda image... i mean, quite pai seh wad! but thank God for each and every one of those who wrote me.
Next, i also wanna thank those who wrote to others.. to other people other than their batman or robin... it takes initiative to write a card/letter to someone even though you don't need to. thanks for being a blessing and showing how the Angel and Mortal board is supposed to be used. :)

wanna blog more, but i'm real tired. another time...

YF Camp

Superheroes!

Off to camp till friday. catch ya guys later! whee! it's finally here. yf camp.

w950i

In two months time, you're going to be mine. Till then, dun stop being beautiful. :)
*jelly knees*

Just some "bleahs" from me

these few days been kinda... busy in the mind. have been a bit distracted in my thinking. i have no idea what's bugging me or playing in my mind but haven't been very joyful lately. more like joyless. haha but things are doing fine i guess. nothing big happening. maybe that's the problem... nothing big's happening. i've thot of some possibilities as to why i might be a bit out of sorts.. but then again, most don't really make sense.

on other news, youth camp's coming up and stress level is getting a bit high as some stuff are still not finished or finalized... and it kinda bugs me that some of it is partly or fully my fault.. i guess things could be worse and if you look at it from a bird's eye view, everything's going well. but still, you know my particular attention to the minute details and those things bug me if they're out of place. groupings are a headache too. trying to get groups that won't have conflicts or strife... i hope that the groupings will be pleasant and that no one will rip anyone's head off during the camp la. :)

qiang's gone. he's finally left for Shanghai and i guess that empty space that he's left has been awfully silent and quiet. this little pocket of vacuum that leaves the air surrounding it with a gap next to them. The vacuum bubble just lingers on and it's kinda obstructing the flow of the other air... that's kinda how i feel with him gone. it's like, the air's just not complete. will surely miss him for these 4 months. that poot. no news from him so far. he better email back with pics. hahah. :) hope everything's going on smooth there la. :S so many uncertainties. but i guess it's good too. tests me and my friendships.

i'm sitting in the computer lab waiting for my theory test to start after lunch. it's just a major waste of my time coz if we could, we would take the test now and dismiss after lunch. but stupid rules say that we can't dismiss that early today so we're all hoping for something like 2pm. :P anything's better than nothing i guess. :P thank goodness Clarence drove today. then i can chiong to church to do camper. :P

had a nice long talk with my mum last night bout relationship issues, parent child relationship, future plans after ns, lots of things la. sad to say, these few days it gets real hard to jus have time to sit down and talk talk talk like we used to. schedules are packed... sigh. kinda sad la. :) but i'm glad we could share that moment and get her good advice on lots of things. she always is able to put things into perspective when i can't, or won't, really see things clearly.

all the best for your exams angel. :) hope you studied hard enuf and will do well. you never know la.. dun worry k? :) i'm sure you'll be ok. dun da bao... otherwise you have to eat next time too. then sure get fat. hahha.. ok lame. :)

yup. things are still playing in my mind i won't lie. :) but i've learnt to be strong and carry on. i mean, how else would i be standing here smiling everyday if i never learnt to push things aside... the mind is a wonderous thing... it's funny how things can remind you of sumthing and that sumthing can just totally mess you up. all the while, no one knows. :)

went to sitex. saw someone who looked a lot like smjr. i couldn't help but smile thinking how amazingly stunning she still is to me.

Hmmm

Drifting...

wandering...

yf camp's coming soon.

sorry got no posts... will post when i got things to blog bout. dun wanna be posting nuthing...

and everytime i feel like bloggin, it's coz i'm emo... not good time to blog. :)

so... keep watching!

A Life without friends?

sometimes i wonder what life would be like if there were no friends.
friends who would jus meet up for dinner. talk and share over a plate of Al Funghi. Sit at the bus stop with coke in our hands and just chat the time away. To remind you that no matter how crappy a day can get or how boring life in general is, there's still them.

sometimes i wonder what life would be like if there were no friends.
If you ask me, it's not really a life i'd wanna live in.

Trip TO Doulos

Went to Doulos today with a few youth after camp comm meeting. it was really nice being able to get there and get a free tour by Simon. Managed to arrange after quite a bit of arrangement with Ee Ling... finally settled the details as to how we're going to meet Simon and stuff like that. so upon finally reaching the place, we toured the bookroom. I took advantage of the good offers [though i thot i'd spend more]... and got meself a CD!

haha wow. rui buys CDs? original CDs? :) yes! this is proof! haha yeh... haven't heard it yet.. rippin it into my com now so i can hear it properly. :) glad i got it though. i love 4Him songs so it can't be all that bad now can it. :) hopefully can spur me on to constant daily QT on the way to work/camp. :)

Yup, so here are some shots of Doulos from today. :P

The proud land-lubbers that are going to go aboard the Doulos. That's Simon.. far right.. duh. :) He's from Germany and he's 20 years old.

midway thru our tour inside the place... showing us photos of the stuff and staff of doulos... seeing how they work and live in these enviroments really impressed me to think how much better we have it.. even in the army.

Shawn posing to show how tight the wall spaces are... claustrophobic people would have a big problem working on the ship. haha...

The wonder herself. The Doulos... been sailing since 1914... two years after the Titanic was built.. yet God still holding up her hull and ministry afloat all these years...

The tour team after seeing the interior.

I'm sure we were all blessed by today's visit and i'm really glad i went... managed to say hi to Emma and Merkka too. :) yeh. so thanks to Ee Ling, Simon, Merkka and Emma for being such wonderful hosts [they will never read this anyways]... and for all who came for the trip today. it was wonderful. :)

Naruto Problems

on a lighter note, take a look at this. super cute.

Missions

Been playing in my mind since the afternoon of Saturday.

If we're all called to Missions when we accept Christ,
Why do we then call it a loss to leave home?
If we've seen and felt the love of God,
why do we still think giving up a bit of our lives is a sacrifice?
If we've enjoyed His salvation and peace
why do we deny it from others?

now i wonder to myself, what then is He calling me and you to?
Comfort? nahz, leave that behind.
Love? What? His love can't reach you out of S'pore?
Protection? He can't be at two places at one time now can He?

Is then missions just a normal and 'required' part of our Christian life?
Where have we gone to spread the gospel? when have we even tried? when has it even popped into our selfish minds?

Think of those who die every day without Christ. Will they die because we're sheltered here and refuse to leave? or will they die becoz they once were brought to Christ by someone and realized that life lost for Christ is not a loss at all?

Here I am Lord, send me. how many of us can say that?

If you can give 2 years to your nation, what's 2 years for God?
Is missions what is in store for me? for you?

inspirations. The Team from Doulos joined with Ee Ling.

Blah.

The Lord gives, and He takes away.

just a random thot b4 i go to guard duty. will be having guard duty on thurs evening till fri morning.

feel free to disturb me via sms. i'll be very bored. i know i will. :)

ps. Rockapella is GREAT.

Halloween BreakOut

So today was really fun... halloween went off a blast.. it was really great seeing the Exco all pumped up and crazy for the event. Special mention MUST go out to Tricia, Nick and Qiang for coming down 2 nights in a row so that we could all plan and prepare for the event. i think it was the determination and commitment that really touched me. For me, cancelling plans and making myself free was already a choice i made before the week began but for the rest of them, they had to miss dinners or lunches with frens and all.. thanks so much.
And for those who couldn't come down for the planning, i know you guys would have loved to but due to unchangable stuff you couldn't... we understand and we want to say thanks nonetheless coz it all turned out fine so dun worry. :)

The day started out crazy. woke up and did my mad crazy last minute rushing out of stuff coz i didn't get much sleep the night before... we stayed up as best we could to do the final prep like the slideshows and clues and all... it was crazy... fighting the sleeping bug like anything. haha.. but yeh, woke up and after rushing lots of stuff, went out to meet Amin and Michelle at Tampines Mall to discuss t-shirt stuff... then ran some errands [buying of certain items for halloween]... must say that Michelle was a HUGE help running around with me and carrying some of the stuff i was buying coz she didn't want me looking auntie auntie with like 3-4 bags in my hand. haha... then we went to the bubble tea stall and michelle ordered a drink while i secretly 'borrowed' their straws for my game later on in church. haha it was funny la. when they turn around or look down, then my hand will come up and grab two straws.. then michelle take 2 and then i take 2 more and stuff... hahaha baaad! stealing from the shop. oops. haha.. but their oreo crush with pearls is NICE! wanna buy it the next time. haha

So upon lugging a pack-o-ice and many many other things to church, i reached there to see the exco, minus a few people, hard at work tapping up the remaining windows and stuff... it was fun fun fun can! when we played the spooky music over the PA, it jus set the mood right there and then... no one wanted to stay in a room alone after that lor! ahha... but yeh, as time ticked closer and closer, the stress level got higher and higher... but mostly all prepared liao la. :)

Then the rain came and we were like... awww man!!! so we started late but it was all good la... the spook factor wasn't too high [which was kinda good and kinda bad] but the lessons learnt were surely brought across i guess. :)
Some people that MUST be mentioned for 'actively' participating in the event coz they screamed and really were spooked out...
Celia, Michelle, Cherie, Lynn, Sean and jus for mention... Zhi Han and his fake screams. -_-;

haha.. the rest of the stuff has to be captured on film but i dunno whether adrian was able to get good shots.. we'll see, he's still editing. :)

Thanks to everyone who came down or prepared for the event. it was smashing. looking forward to the next big event!!! :)

Tired

Guard duty takes life away from you. You just become a shell... waiting to sleep.

good night world. i'm going to sleep.

Halloween BreakOut Publicity

Today the Exco dressed up as a King, a Tigger, An Angel, A Flower girl, A Santa-ress, a Joker and a Cowboy to publicize the upcoming YF activity this Saturday... Halloween Breakout!

It was real fun... we walked around the fellowship hall after service... much to the amazement of the children and adults, the youth were attracted to the sudden change in sanity of the committee... we walked around in pairs giving out worms... ok fine, GUMMY worms which had the invites PIERCED thru their lengthy bodies. :) managed to get the P6ers and some other we dun normally see at yf.. :) it was real fun la... being crazy for a short while. haha.. can't wait for this saturday. when we go full force. :) mwhaha. watch out.

Other than that, today was very tiring. from the start of the day till the end, it was rushing here and responsibilities there. sigh. busy busy but still lovin' it. :) Everything went to plan and nothing messed up la.. so thank God.

mum performed tonite and it was nice... been a while since i heard Choral music so it was like stepping back in time to those concerts we were forced to attend in choir. haha...

Random thot: The Lohs are such hospitable people and I was indeed, touched by each member's little contribution to making my day fun, special and loved. :) thanks.

Cool online shop

Funky B Christian Apparel

So tempted to buy many many many stuff. hahaha.. :P eee. bad bad. :P

展开清晨的翅膀

wanna share a real nice song with everyone. it's a really nice Christian Chinese song. :) if you want the mp3, here it is.... ps. hope you can see chinese in your browser. :)

展开清晨的翅膀.mp3

展开清晨的翅膀

主耶和华祢已经鉴察了我，
我坐下　我起来，
祢都已晓得，
我行路　我躺卧，
祢都细察，
祢也深知我一切所行

我舌头上的话，
祢没有一句不知道，
祢在我前后环绕着我，
按手在我身上，
这样的奇妙，
是我不能测透，
祢的至高，
祢的尊贵，
是我永远不能所及。

我可以往哪里去躲避祢的灵，
我可以往哪里去逃，
可躲避祢的面，
我若展开清晨的翅膀飞到地极，
就在那里，
祢的双手也必引导我。

Changes to skin

Thanks for noticing that small error in the archives nick.

i like this skin. so you gotta bear with it. why? COZ IT'S MY BLOG. *evil laughter* Mwhaha.

anyways, jus came back from watching the show "The Covenant"... it's MAJORLY bad. really really bad. hahah i wasted my money TOTALLY lor.
sigh... please please dun pay for it. dun even download it off the net. it's not worth the time. :) I hope no one else has wasted their money on it. haha

yuppers. things are going good. today, i started out the first Christian Small Group meeting in Camp... pulled together 7 Christians and during the break time today, we shared around a circle... intro-ed who we are and where we're from... background and other related stuff. :) it was nice to get them all seated together, learning about each other better. :)
Reid, Terry, Staff Philip, Joshua, Clarence and Alvin were the attendees for the first meeting. :) we'll see where this goes and see how God will work in our lives la... hopefully can meet once a week or sumthing to pray or what la. :)

Tricia just called. All the best for your chinese me dear girl. i'm sure you'll be fine but nonetheless, here's a prayer for you! :) Will be lookin forward to hearing bout the results when they're out.

Tomolo's WOW Worship... managed to get Alvin to come. thank God that i've been able to invest my time and effort into him. wanna bring him back to God and wanna help him get back on the path... dun want him moonwalking [backsliding] anymore... you never know who you can impact in the short time on this earth, i hope i can impact him. :) Thank God he's open to being impacted. haha

Thanks be to God for most of the things going on in my life. Getting thru day by day is already a blessing i cannot thank God more for. He sends peace and strength my way with every waking moment.

New Skin

I Love my new Blog Skin. oh my.

love it to bits. :)

L. :)