Confused, wishing what i'm thinking is wrong

I don't want to believe what my mind might be telling me. jumping to conclusions is always the worst thing to do.

what's worse, i'm booking in later on today so i can't really have a proper conversation.

should i just leave? would this be the third that has to go? will it ever be possible to maintain sumthing i start?

i'm afraid to know the answer. but i think i need to know. i need you to tell me what's going on.

how i've trusted, so much. misplaced and misguided dependance and faith? i dun want to think i'm right.

yet, somehow when i think more about it, a lot of things fit in. the story you told me long ago about your friend... the times i wondered to myself if it was because your hp bill might be high.

right now, i dun really know wad to believe. but trust me on this... i'm prayin hard that i'm wrong. very hard. i can't lose you.