My Office Desk

That's a picture of my desk in the office. They say you can tell a lot about a person by looking at his desk. Some people's desks are crazy messy, some are super neat and tidy. Where they place their stuff also make a difference, what's within reach and what's chucked in a corner.

So here i feature just a bit of my desk. The 2 mirrors that make sure i don't get caught by some silly sneaky colleague. I have to say how USEFUL this is. it tell me who's behind me and all that jazz and it also makes sure i'm in the know if anyone's staring at my screen. haha... it has also saved me quite a few times from being caught not working. haha.

My 2 handphone cradles. One bought by J.Chen and one by me. It keeps my handphones upright and always ready to be answered. :) i kinda like the fact that it keeps it propped up instead of on the laying flat on the table. :) haha... i must say that these 2 cradles have cause me quite a bit of frustration trying to get them. it isn't easy buying cradles i tell you! haha.

And finally, the crane that's stuck to my laptop. This has some history coz it was made for me by a colleague of mine during a very stressful period of my work. It was like all the work was crashing down on me one by one like waves hitting the shore and i was just taking them one after the other. My colleague was on her last week of work and so had set up tent next to me sharing my desk. So quietly she just took my notebook, tore off a bit of the paper and while i went hectic crazy on my side of the table, she jus silently folded a paper crane for me. She left it on my keyboard while i wasn't typing and it made SUCH a big difference to me i just stopped everything i was doing and appreciated the moment. It was really really heartening to know that amidst all this nonsense, there was a glimmer of care and concern shown by my fren. I promptly stuck it onto the laptop making a promise to myself never to forget that i still had frens with me. It has so far gotten me through a lot of frustrating times. just looking at it puts my mind at ease even though my fren has already left the company. :)

So that's just a rough run down of my desk... it is quite neat thankfully and i intend to keep it that way. :)

Welcome to my 8.30-6pm weekday life.

Just another day in the office

Yesterday was a smashing day out. Real packed and quite tiring coz it was LONG!!! but i'm glad i did wad i did yesterday. big changes.

Had church service in the morning followed by a good time of fellowship at the fellowship hall. Then we moved up to the roof for CE class, which is ALWAYS good. Just reading and discussing about God's Word with likeminded and intellectually stimulating Christian peers are always a joy and highlight of my Sundays. We managed to cover stuff that were surely debatable like whether or not Peter's vision of the food being called unclean was also literal... did they then eat unclean food after that vision or not.
Even talked bout dreams and visions which we promised to carry on discussing thru email though no one has shot anything out. mmmm bad.

Then after, i rushed down to Orchard Hotel for the Aust. Unis open house. real glad i went coz i was able to apply for the ones i want and get a clearer picture of everything.

Met up with a fren there and we [a.yeo, n.chan, r.wong and l.kwan] all went for dinner. After the nice delicious dinner, we proceeded to try to watch a movie but there weren't any suitable and good shows to watch so we bus-ed to Minds cafe and spent an hour there over fun and games.... wow. it was a happening night and i'm glad everything went well. :)

God puts people in your way so you won't miss them in the crowd. Just a random thot that popped into my head. :) i gotta run to the airport now. ciaoz peeps.

Thank God for friends. they keep me going and pointed to God coz without them, i wouldn't have the discipline to seek God... which is sumthing i'm trying hard to change. :)

Office Olympics

I found this extremely funny. It's taken from the most recent issue [Aug 21st] of 8 Days.

Devotion by Max Lucado

Read this for QT yesterday but was too busy to blog. have a read, it's real simple and easy... but speaks volumes... quite a cool parallel of Adam and Jesus; some we know, some new.

My father taught me the lesson early: Don't create havoc in the garden. You can play ball in the yard. But the garden? Leave it alone.
Satan learned the same lesson: Don't mess around with a garden-especially a garden that belongs to the Father.
The Bible is the story of two gardens. Eden and Gethsemane. In the first, Adam took a fall. In the second, Jesus took a stand. In the first, God sought Adam. In the second, Jesus sought God. In Eden. Satan led Adam to a tree that led to his death. From Gethsemane. Jesus went to a tree that led to our life.
Satan was never invited to the Garden of Eden. If he has invaded a garden in your life, then invite Jesus to reclaim it. He will enter and do what He did at Gethsemane. He will pray, and He will protect, and He will reclaim.

Take off my clothes. joke

LOLZ. wad a stupid joke. but it got me laughing. Enjoy

My wife came home the other night and told me to take off her blouse.
Then she told me to take off her skirt.
Then she told me not to wear her clothes anymore.

Forgiving and Forgiveness

Jesus knowing that the Father had given all things into his hands, and that he was come from God, and went to God;
He riseth from supper, and laid aside his garments; and took a towel, and girded himself.
After that he poureth water into a bason, and began to wash the disciples' feet, and to wipe them with the towel wherewith he was girded.
John 13:3-5

I read an interesting bit of info in today's QT. it was talkin bout how Jesus washed the disciples feet. we all know how it was a servant's attitude that made Him wash the feet of the disciple but 2 points struck me today.

1. He washed the feet of the disciples. not the hands, not the head, not the arms... the feet. the most dirty part of a person's body that's caked in mud, grime and dirt. Imagine those times, people walked from place to place either barefooted or in sandels. The dust kicked up everytime someone shuffled their feet or ran. Apart from being the same beige color as the ground, i'm very sure the disciples feet were as cracked and cast in mud. To wash the feet of a disciple was reserved for the servant and it was unheard of for a host of the house/party to wash the feet of his/her guests.

2. We will never be able to wash the feet of those who have hurt us until we allow Jesus, the one we have hurt, to wash ours. That is so true. how often we forget that sinning and making Jesus die on the cross [though technically we can't make Him do anything He doesn't want to do]
hurt Him and God. To see His Son dying there and to actually BE dying there must have hurt God and Jesus emotionally. And then there we go screaming, kicking and whining complaining about how this or that person hurt us and how this or that person is so unfair. We wallow in self pity and always esteem our problems higher than others... now we jus need to take a step back and ask Jesus for forgiveness and let Him wash our feet, to make us clean, to teach us humility.

Powerful QT today. thank the Lord for this wonderful book given by J.Goh... He's such a blessing, and thus, I should be one too. :)

Job Description

Since Angel asked... here's a chat i just had with a fren....

::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:29 AM):
from now till end nov... intern at SingTel to do the F1 race.

*May Ann* says (12:29 AM):
in what area?

::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:29 AM):
it's Really quite exciting and fun. i'm workin there now la. and we're quite understaffed.
::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:30 AM):
well if i'm not mistaken, she'll / he'll be managing the GRID Girls, websites, the F1 simulator [really cool] and party and events that lead up to race day and post race stuff

*May Ann* says (12:30 AM):
heh.. it does sound interesting

::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:30 AM):
coz that's what i'm doing and we're all working on it.

*May Ann* says (12:31 AM):
heh.. weekends?

::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:31 AM):
yarh give me a heads up?
::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:31 AM):
no no. normal work day.
::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:31 AM):
8.30am to 6pm. but work kinda only starts at 9. or 9.30... whenever our supervisor comes in.

*May Ann* says (12:31 AM):
at where?

::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:31 AM):
it's cubicle job... Somerset Singtel Building.

*May Ann* says (12:31 AM):
what's the pay like?
*May Ann* says (12:31 AM):
haha..

::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:31 AM):
but like i said, grid girls, parties, road shows... so it's not always stuck at the desk.

*May Ann* says (12:31 AM):
the most impt qn

::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:31 AM):
if i'm not mistaken $800 a month.
::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:32 AM):
singtel canteen is DIRT cheap. and it's REALLY good. so pay's not that big an issue la. it's really the exposure and the chance to say i was SO involved in the first night race in spore.
::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:32 AM):
singtel is the sole title sponser of the F1 race. the first ever night race in spore.
::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:32 AM):
needless to say, it'll shine on the resume.

*May Ann* says (12:33 AM):
hehe.. alrighties =

::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:33 AM):
bosses are GREAT and our big big boss [head of corporate comms] is an openly religious Christian sunday sch teacher from BarkerRoad meth.

*May Ann* says (12:33 AM):
nice =)

::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:33 AM):
please, pass the word around and get back to me if u have anyone.

*May Ann* says (12:33 AM):
sure =)

::† Prisoner Of Freedom †:: Vertically Loved. Horizontally Blessed. says (12:33 AM):
thanks.

Need Intern!

URGENT....

if you know of anyone [girl preferably] who is starting school in Aust in Feb OR who's ok to work 8.30am to 6pm job from now till end nov, please let me know ASAP... the company I work for, SingTel is looking for an intern.

CALL ME if u have someone in mind. We're in need of help. thankies! Trust me, the job's a blast.

Pipe vs Bucket

I was on my way to work yesterday when I was treated to the likes of Bob Sjogern. Finally disciplining myself to continue where I left off, I plugged in my phone's MP3 and 'sermon-ed' my way to work today. It was good just filling myself with the Word as irritating people squeezed me in the MRT. However, I wasn't going to let the surroundings affect my mood and concentration on the gospel. As it filled my ears, I made it a point to let it fill my mind as well. Listening to the Word as the first act of the day [minus brushing up, changing and leaving the home] really does make things different... perspective of the day just changes in some indescribable way. Well, enough bout that... about the sermon...

He was speaking about how there's a TOP line of a message and a BOTTOM line of the message. How the Bible isn't 66 books but ONE solid book. And just like every other book, this book [the Bible] has an introduction, the main content and the conclusion. But that's another story for another day. The TOP line of the message is that God blesses us. yay whee we win. God loves us yipee... ah but we often forget the BOTTOM line of the message. Which is to say, we bless others. Take for example this simple example of how the 'Levi' people were priests. They were given the right to meet God and to be the middle man between God and people. However they were also given the responsibility of preaching and giving the people the Word of God. likewise, we are also priests. We're given the responsibility of preaching the Word to others also.

One more point i thot was really good was how he likened us to Pipes instead of buckets. We don't jus collect and collect and collect the blessings from God. rather, we should be like pipes and channel the blessings to others as well. so as much as we are blessed, we should bless others as well. This is Christ's work in us and through us. :) Amen to that.

Benefits of Work

Woot! today was QUITE an interesting day. I got 2 things from my work place... first of all, i managed to get some car seats... long story and i dun intend on going into details... but i might jus get some new seats in my car... for free! haha.

But what's more... umm cooler [no.. not those kind u keep beer in]...i got a work line. means i have 2 phones now... so when i call u work line, dun be surprised. it's jus me being cheapo and trying to save money at as many places of my life as possible. :) what is ultra cool is that it turns out the phone they gave me to use [after whining to my boss Eva about not having a phone to use] happens to be the exact same model as mine, jus that it's in red color. oh my goodness.. was so shocked when she took it out.. i was like WOAH! THAT'S MY PHONE! haha... so now i have 2 w760i phones... oh goodness *faints* :)

i am a happy man today. oh and i got my job scope liao. haha nope, i'm no longer in charge of the grid girls [i'm actually quite happy bout it]... i'm in charge of sumthing else i dunno if i can reveal. so i shant... but it's working with people too la. so it's quite the happening. real glad. haha... hope the 2 interns coming in to replace my colleagues are good looki... i mean.. umm presentable and nice people to work with. :) grinz. apparently, they're employing 2 girls. grinz (x2)

whee!

Bcoz M.Chan complains how i always retard [make a photo retarded looking] with my face... here's one without me

birthday wishes

Didn't do much this year. worked till bout 6plus then had to go church for singing practice. was treated to good fellowship in the night and that's a summart of the 31st of july 2008. :)

Thanks for all the love and wishes from so many ways [sms, email, in person, over the phone]...

specially to:
tricia, adrian, sab, joanna, jamie lee, jodi, daphne, arthur, ian, harold, nick, auntie dawn, ivan, zhi han, angel, wendy low, meliza, cheryl, mavis, yvonne, jamie, joella, marcus, chelsea, vera, yan sing, yuan, joash, michelle, nick, chun kit, shawn and others... i only recorded a bit.

I'm grateful for everyone's wishes but seriously, a birthday is just another day. nothing that special about it... so dun feel bad u didn't wish or wished late... to me, it doesn't matter. :)

Things i'm glad for over this week [totally off the top of my head]
Hair is growing longer... yayz finally. hope it all works out
future plans for after work are getting more and more interesting with where i might go
work has been interesting and fun, colleagues are a super fun bunch.

crickets are tasty... kinda. :)

Traffic Jam Party and 1st Day @ Singtel

So the past few days have been quite interesting… Needless to say, the weekend was much looked forward to. We had YF on Saturday and we ended the day LANing at the Tsao’s place. It was pretty fun coz we just hooked up the coms, laptops and stuff and jus gamed away. :) But Sunday was truly memorable.

This Sunday, I finally managed to go for the Daughtry traffic jam street party. It was AMAZING… it was loud, funky, happening, hip, exciting It was everything I asked for in a concert and I got to see Daughtry live in person. now THAT was pretty neat. We started queue-ing up at bout 6.30 and finally when the gate opened, we were ushered in. The party started shortly after with some local bands opening for Daughtry. I must say that it was a tremendously long wait but we were kept entertained. the bands were good and they really got the dead crowd moving a bit and singing along... not bad at all considering how Singapore is like dead la. But i did enjoy the openers and appreciated the style of rock and loud music.

Then finally Daughtry took the stage at bout 9... goodness, how did i survive standing for so long? Anyways, He rocked the house and it was pretty neat how He managed to own the stage with his band. They were just taking control of Armenien Street like they owned the place. One thing I have to mention is that girls scream really loudly and everytime a song started/ended or when he came on stage, the screams and cheers were deafening. Then they say sumthing like "Are you reaaaaady?!?!?!" and that jus urges them to scream louder. goodness. haha deafening to the max. haha but still, all part of the environmental experience.

So we partied hard and it was great jus letting loose. Although yes, my mind and body was still watching out for my fren, but that didn't mean we both didn't have a smashingly awesome time. Sad to say half of our party group had to leave early coz of work the next day but [refer to above] that don't mean the rest of the group [now 2] had to stop partying. haha So yeh, we rocked the night away and rocked the town down screaming the songs and feeling the atmosphere rise with each song he sang. To wrap up, they walked off stage and then finally after much more screaming and cheering, they came back to sing Home and another song to end it all off. wowz... that was great! i was so happy they sang Home... coz it was sumthing i was dying for.

Post-party found us both realizing how much of our hearing was actually gone... like seriously it was weird not being able to hear much but we were countin the cost... and we knew to get the experience we did, we'd have to sacrifice sumthing. haha


yeh so that was sunday's party. Then come monday [yes the next day] i started work at Singtel. And since then, i've been working there. it's real fun i say... this is already my third day and i'm still excited about what i do. I basically am in charge of the Singtel Grid Girls for the F1 race coming up... And well, there are a lot of behind the scenes stuff people dun see so dun think i'm jus being paid to hang with the girls coz i haven't even properly met them yet... it'sjus settling their uniforms and schedules and blogs and stuff la... so yeh, not like i'm a pimp. I think we are all professionally employed and the way Singtel is run, it's real great. My fellow interns are all Christians and so is my big big boss... Really cool coz it affects a lot of things la. But whatever rite? So on the ground, my immediate bosses are real nice, i love the working experience of having meetings with clients and event organizers and stuff.. real cool that i'm expanding my network too. at least getting the exposure of how people [my boss] represents singtel and goes around trying to get people to work with them yet still keeping enuf info on our side to know that the ball is still in our court as to who we choose. really cool manipulative mind games that go on in board rooms too. haha

but yeh, so far, life has been pretty great... enjoying working la. the interns are great... and i'll be sad when people start to leave. but till then, i'm gonna make sure i get the best experience i can. :)

Yayz!!!

Doh-Tah, holy smoke

Oh goodness. take a listen/watch at this... it's SU-PAH far-knee... haha i'm looping it jus to hear it over and over again.... hahah even now as i type this entry. :)

credits to A.Pua for blogging the vid on her blog. ahaha supah farknee. :) enjoy.
holy smoke.... HAHAHAHA
p.s. i will be blogging bout my past 2 days.. but later la. i'll blog from work. HAHA. :)

Should I?

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Pa won't like it
A farm boy accidentally overturned his wagonload of corn. The farmer who lived nearby heard the noise and yelled over to the boy, "Hey Willis, forget your troubles. Come in and visit with us. I'll help you get the wagon up later."
"That's mighty nice of you," Willis answered, "but I don't think Pa would like me to."
"Aw come on boy," the farmer insisted.
"Well okay," the boy finally agreed, and added, "but Pa won't like it."
After a hearty dinner, Willis thanked his host. "I feel a lot better now, but I know Pa is going to be real upset."
"Don't be foolish!" the neighbor said with a smile. "By the way, where is he?"
"Under the wagon."

Watch-a-holic

So maybe i like watches. So sue me. :)

I WAS using only one for a long time. :)

p.s. go try gothere. it's a wonderful tool now that streetdirectory.com is gone. :) i'm highly impressed by gothere. so useful. :)

Behind the Scenes by Fancesca Battistelli

P.s. Sorry this is only 30-seconds long.... it's to make sure people dun steal this great song off the net.
This is a wonderful song. I've been listening to this new artist... she's 20. goodness.. but she's a Christian singer and her songs are really nice easy listening, plus... them being Christian help me remember some stuff that I often forget. I recommend this album to anyone... and if u want a preview or the whole album, let me know. u can bring your thumbdrive and i'll pass it to you...

enuf bout that, when i was listening to the album, this song really spoke to me. It still rings very true... It's like those songs that u find that's specifically written about you. This song reminded me that although you put yourself in the limelight, you lead, you stand in front and be the figure that people know and associate with 'good leadership and Godliness', i'm just as sinful [if not more] than any one around. No one really knows my sin except me and God and this song is just a reminder to me that putting yourself in the forefront doesn't make you any more Godly than anyone else, it doesn't excuse your sin and more importantly, it doesn't erase anything you've done. Every one sins, myself included, but as leaders, do people expect us to be superhuman? Coz they're not.

It's my prayer that as we listen to this song and ponder, may we strive to be perfect, to be faultless so that no man can question your motives, source of strength and trust. God is God, we are man, but that doesn't excuse us from all the sin in our life, no matter what 'position' we may hold in this human life. We are all equal sinful sheep.

Lyrics:
You may think
I’m just fine
How could anything
Ever be out of line?

I take my time
To set the stage
To make sure everything
Is all in place

Even though I’ve got the lines rehearsed
A picture only paints a thousand words

(Chorus)
Things aren’t always what they seem
You’re only seeing part of me
There’s more than you could ever know
Behind the scenes
I’m incomplete and I’m undone
But I suppose like everyone
There’s so much more that’s going on
Behind the scenes

Sometimes I can’t see
Anything
Through the dark
Surrounding me
And at times I’m unsure
About the ground
Beneath my feet
If it’s safe and sound

When it’s hard to find hope in the unseen
I have peace in knowing it will find me

(Chorus)

You may think I’m just fine
How could anything ever be out of line?

Debz and Airy are back!

So here i am sitting in coffee bean at the airport... it's 12.32am. an hour since debz and airy's flight was supposed to land. I actually was supposed to have almost an hour of free time to myself and NISS before my parent's flight comes... but here i am, left with less than half an hour before i gotta run off to budget terminal. :S haha but i guess it's better than nothing and with the free time i have coz of ORD!!!! i can do NISS another day la. :) just gotta wake up earlier... say... 8am? grinz.

okok so Nick has been complaining i'm being proud about my ORD and being so free.. but seriously... i'm supposed to be. i will NOT hide the fact that i'm super happy that i'm no longer an NSF and i'm so glad i dun need to go work anymore... i'm sorry nick, as they say in the army... suck thumb... haha but yeh, i'll gloat LESS when i'm in your presence. hahha.. like u said jus now la, u dun understand how i feel about ORD coz you've not gone thru what i have... and likewise, you will... so when yours comes, you'll understand what ORD means...

But with that said and done, this entry isn't bout ORD coz that was the last entry... this entry is more about the 2 groups of people who are coming back tonite...
Debz and Airy - 2 people i really miss quite a bit. and the absence makes the heart grow fonder... totally.. haha... it feels like forever since i was able to fellowship properly with them so i'm immensely glad that they're back. As much as i tried to, i couldn't hide the fact that my heart jumped for joy when i saw them walk thru those pearly gates of... oh wait... no no i meant the glassy doors of the airport arrival hall. hahaha. :) no but seriously, i think both of them represent sumthing in my life that i've lacked since quite a while ago so them being back would hopefully help me to get those areas of my life back on track.

For my parents who are touching down in T minus 23minutes... The week that they have been gone has put me thru some thinking. as much as i loved the liberation of them gone, there were SO many times that the thot of 'what if' crossed my mind. esp with my sister gone to chicago... i kept wondering... it's fun... it's great... but what if this was permanent. what if sumthing happened and i'm left alone in this world without a family.. would doing loads of laundry still be exciting? buying chicken rice and da bao-ing home to eat in front of the TV still be a novelty? would having extra cars in the driveway make sense? It scared me to think la. what would i do without them...
Yeh, and it also made me evaluate whether i can take care of myself all alone... whether my income would run out and how then? work and survive alone? so yeh, as much as i loved the freedom this week brought me, it also helped me think thru some important life questions... and of course, i still conclude [even before they left] that i still treasure them and need them so much in my life. My dad took the house keys and with it, the mailbox key. so i haven't been able to check snail mail in a week.. how much are we talkin bout? i have NO idea... lolz.

and the time is 12.45... so i should go... but jus to prove that i was here in the airport blogging... here are random dumb pictures!

ORD LOH!

It's finally here. It's finally passed and I'm finally free....

After waiting 2 long years, I'm finally out of the army. I guess it's safe to say that I've learned much from the 2 years in the army. I've learnt soft skills like how to deal with people, how to make decisions for the team, how to solve problems based on the situations in front of me. I've even learnt hard skills like how to repair vehicles, how to fire a rifle, how to throw a grenade and how to follow commands and march like, no, as a soldier.
To say that the past 2 years were a complete waste of time would be really insensitive and selfish. Coz as much as I'd like to, i have to say that the Army has helped me grow into a more mature, more decisive and less flippant person. The leadership there may not have been the best, the worst actually, but that only showed me how to work under and with tough management whom i might not agree with.

so to sum it all off, the past 2 years are all over and i'm glad i've finally got my freedom back. now... we'll see what awaits.

ORD LOH!

1 Day to ORD

Do I even need to say anything? :)

Rambles from Subway

Went down to the Creative store today at Marina Square... i'm actually in marina sq now. haha but whatever... had a look at the Zen X-Fi... it's sweet seriously... the look is nice, the size is to die for and the screen, wow... so sharp, clear and crazily vibrant... when i was browsing the pictures, it was like i was watching a tv or sumthing. kudos to Creative on that.

however, i really didn't see the need to upgrade to this considering how i already have a good working player which can do everything this one can [music, video, pictures] and it has the same screen size... yup... so i shall jus bite the bullet and wait for a better player to come up... aybe one that can surf the web and send emails. :) yup. thankfully i didn't jus buy it on impulse or sumthing... it does look sweet though so if i didn't have an already working-fine mp3 player from creative, i'd seriously have put some thot and possibly cash into it. :)

that aside, i'm glad that thingsa re pretty smooth sailing now. NISS is keeping me in touch with God. Thank God for this solid CE Bible Study Program in the youths and i pray that we'll all benefit 110% from it to learn more about God and to learn God. we can't jus know ABOUT God. we must know God.

a good friend's grandma just passed away. sigh. funerals always make me a bit sad. esp when i get the answer 'no' when i ask if they were a believer... u really are accountable to the time u have here and how many people u share Christ to. it's really sad to see them leave coz u know wad's awaiting isn't heaven. sigh... sorry to bring this down and make the mood low, but this truly is the essence of my feelings now. the sense of despair that there's nothing left we CAN do...

on other news, been receiving quite a lot of bad news recently too. personal life, friends, family... lots of things aren't going the way we planned. but i guess we still have time to affect and effect changes... just pray that with the time we have, we can use it for God... thankfully the Bible is keeping me and us all strong... stronger than we could ever be without Him.